The Queen's Guard (gxg)

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Maia P.O.V

What is this feeling? The pain in my chest? Almost as if my heart was being torn to shreds, almost as if I've been denied of breath. It was an aching feeling, my body shuddered in Raven's arms momentarily, before the pain faded away.

I took a deep breath in and removed myself from the woman's arms. Her hazel eyes were wide as she contemplated me warily. She was deep in thought, I could tell, I've seen it many times before.

"Raven?" I asked breathlessly. The Queen didn't reply however, she just continued to stare into the space between us to, "Raven!" I persisted a tad louder.

She snapped out of it, I saw the confliction behind her eyes as she gulped hard, "Maia." My heart raced as she spoke my name. She never failed to make me feel that way, it was hard to keep the way it made me feel hidden.

"Hey," I brushed the experienced I had just endured away and focussed back on the black-haired woman in front of me, "What're you thinking about Darling?" I smiled in an attempt to hide the fact I nearly had a heart attack in her arms.

Raven blinked before responding, "Can I kiss you?"

I arched an eyebrow and tried to calm the heart palpitations. I looked down to her lips and forced myself to look away. We had kissed before, it felt amazing, it felt like my heat was going to burst out of my weak chest. I may be a goddess, but the way she makes me feel on a daily bases forces me to feel like a commoner. I knew kissing her would make me fall for her harder, it was true.

I was in love. And I was trying my hardest to prevent those feelings from proceeding. She reminded me so much of Nichola, but that isn't what I found so endearing. It was the way she blushed when I called her 'My Darling', it was the way she spoke to me like I was a normal person. It was the way she dealt with the whole assassination ordeal. It was the way she simply was. Everything about her was perfect, it made me hurt that I couldn't have her the way I wanted.

If it had no repercussions, then I would kiss her all day long if she ever asked.

But unfortunately, it did have consequences, so I shook my head, "I can't do that."

Her expression contorted to a hurt one, "Why? We've kissed before."

"But now it's just-"

In an instant, I saw a flash of light and shortly after, a loud crash the vibrated Raven's chambers. Lightning had struck out of nowhere, and despite that, her eyes remained trained of me, "Don't worry sweetheart, I'm here."

I grinned at her an arched my eyebrow, "Sweetheart?"

"Not doing it for ya?" She replied laughing.

"My darling, you should just leave me to the nicknames. Okay?"

Even in the dim light the candle was radiating, I could see the blood rush up to her cheeks. Immediately, my heart swelled at the sight of her getting so flustered, and when she spoke, my insides twisted happily. "Hmm. You haven't called me that in a hot minute."

"What? Darling?"

She shook her head and gave me a warm smile before inching closer, "Yours."

It was my turn to blush after that. Over the course of time I had spent as Raven's bodyguard, I hadn't called her that nickname in a while. Sometimes, I was too flustered to even think it, and other times, it wasn't the right time. But between those moments, I always thought of her as My Darling, no matter what.

It was those select few times she mentioned the fact that the nickname claimed she was 'mine' that made my insides twist uncontrollably.

"You want to kiss me?" I asked regaining my composure.