Your soft lips opening and closing letting words flow through. My mind made them seem calm and relaxed at first. Even though I can't hear over the voices screaming "FUCKING KILL YOURSELF, HE'S JUST GOING TO HIT YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN" I seen anger begin spreading across your face as you noticed that I was lost in my mind. I can't help but smile to myself as I remember when you used to hug me tight like you never wanted to let me go, when you would laugh and smile at my stupid jokes but now.. now you're clenching your fist in anger as you pull it back like a bow and arrow my smile melts away as tears began to pour down along with my smile as it all hits me at once. His fist felt like concrete as I hit the ground the pain was overwhelming, as he sighed and left after staring at me for just a slight moment. Once again the alarm clock on my nightstand was flashing 2:36 flashing at me again and I'm going through our conversations in my mind, my bloody lip forcing itself into a big goofy smile like the dumb fuck I am because, you're so cute and funny but then I remember that these conversations happened during a time when I actually meant something to you; I haven't had one of these conversations in months. My stomach twisted itself thousands of times like it was ringing out a wet towel, but the butterflies came flying out of my throat slowly choking my inside out. Breathing was already difficult was my lavender shaded ribs, found it harder to respire, my palms grasped my hair and tightened as they yanked and tugged as the panic attack only worsened, thoughts poured throughout my brain as my screen lights up, your name smeared across it like disarrayed letters. Tears managed to break past my bulging, violet eye, down my golden yellow and ruby red cheek. "Please.." "please stop.."
