I don't know what is wrong with me.. but I can't help myself but to lie to try and keep us from going down. I don't even know what to think anymore. What in my stupid life is good when both choices I have is us staring down the barrel to the bullets that I can't stop. Whether it's you screaming for your mistakes or trying to seem like the victim, it's the pitch in your panicked voice. As usual some of us never change, every time I open up and give you my trust you seem to find a way to break it down. Are the walls still closing in on me? God if love was trust then you would put a gun to my head and pull the trigger after kissing me. Common sense must have not been that common for me, because I stayed with you and I kissed you every night, even if I didn't know if I would be the last one. Why don't I run away? Why don't I leave and never ever come back. I could leave you and move along with my life and be happy again. I'll go to church and pray that you won't be untrustworthy anymore. I doubt it'll do anything, since it hasn't in awhile but, I'll try once more for you.
