Dont judge people by their looks!

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'Whats the point in life If all there is, is pain and anger'

Those words flashed across my mind as I stared into the eyes of my mum and older brother. A mix of shock and worry spread across their faces as they stared down at my scars.

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life sucks. I thought to myself as i sat at the kitchen with my mum shouting in my ear as she prepared our meal.

"Univercity is where you want to be Alisha. Lord knows why you want to become a Beauty Therapist, theres no degree in it. Where as a Lawyer has everything going for it, dergrees and the money Alisha the money is amazing. Do whats best for your future and become a Lawyer. Dont let your choices destroy this family"

"Yes mum" I awnsered hopeing not to anger the women any further than what she was. Getting off my seat I grabbed the large plate of food off the counter and made my way into the living room where I found Alex sitting on the sofa staring into space. Placing the plate on his lap I stood in silence waiting for the 'thank you' that I knew would never come. Giving up I walked into the kitchen seeing my mum sat by the kitchen table with a cup of coffee. Her long blond hair was placed in a tight bun ontop of her head with strands falling down into her dull blue eyes. Her brown dress slung to her body but didnt show off any of curves she had.

"ALISHA GET IN HERE NOW AND EAT YOUR FUCKING FOOD OU UNGRAITFUL GIRL!" She shouted with out looking up from her plate. " Mum im here, next to you" I said timidly. " Well eat then clean the dishes but after that I dont want to see neither you or your brother down stairs, I dont even know why I had either of you your both so ungreatful" With a quick sorry I hurridly eat the food on the plate not vothering to find out what it was called, knowing mum would call me other names if I did.

Finishing the food in under 5 minutes I grabbed both our plates and placed them in the sink before going into the living room to get Alex's. Returning to the kitchen I scrubbed the plates making sure not to spray water onto the floor. I finished the last plate and placed them into the drying rack and walking into the hallway and up the stairs into my room, shutting my bedroom door I let out a sigh of relief after hearig Alex's door shut not long after mine.

I was use to this life style, its how ive lived ever since my farther walked out on us 5 years ago, He said it was because he didnt feel love towards our mother any more but we all knew it was because of something else. My mother became obssessed with work when my dad left. She couldnt stand the sight of me and alex either. I couldnt stand the sight of her most of the time, so i knew one thing we had in common.

I slowly moved over to my bed and dove on it. my laptop was on and i had two emails off of this boy that i was talking to.

Dear Alisha,

I missed talking to you today. I had a few friends around erlier and we chilled out for a while. then i went to meet my brother. I then went to sleep for a while. And now im rolling a joint and talking to you:) what have you done today baby? I miss your voice... Ring me later? Hope everything is okay.

Love

Dean. x x x

I instantly smiled when i read it. He was different to other boys. he was acctually interested in me for who i was not just interested in getting in my pants. Me and dean had been talking for about 8 weeks now and i felt like ive known him all of my life. He made me laugh and told me i was beautiful and told me he loved me and he missed me. I felt safe speaking to him. like nothing bad could happen.

I thought of a reply and started typing away.

Hi babe.

Awwh that sounds nice. I missed you too today. I havent done much today. woke up watched tv argued with my mum. the usual really.

Love

Alisha xxxxx

Dear Alisha,

Run away with me?

Love

Dean. x x x

What did he just say? My heart instantly jumped into my throat and a grin spread across my face. I cant be seriously thinking about this? Can i?

My hands slowly went onto the keybpard again and i started replying.

Dean,

Okay... When? Where?

Love

Alisha xxxxx

Dear Alisha,

I will meet you outside your house in 2 hours. I cant wait to do this! Dont reply just be there.

Love

Dean. x x x

I ran over to my wardrobe and grabbed my ruck sack and filled it with clothes and make up and shoes. I waited for the clock to hit 6 o'clock so i could leave. maybe i should right a note.

Dear who ever reads this.

I have run away. i cant take mums pethetic behaviour no longer. dont try to reach me because you wont.

bye

alisha.

My handwrighting became sloppy as tears streamed down my face. This is the beginging of my life. i cant be sad.