The Demon In Me (Shawmila)

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•Camila•

24th May
The Tonight show starring Jimmy Fallon

"And our guest today is CAMILA CABELLO!" I heard jimmy shout and knew it was my cue to go out to the audience.

"Hi!" I said hugging jimmy and sitting down on the couch as he sat down on his chair

"Hey! how's everything going?" He asks

"Everything's going great! My song is number 1 on iTunes, I couldn't be happier" I said smiling

"It is!" He said "I really like 'I have Questions' I feel like it holds a lot of meaning to you" He said and I nodded

"It does"

"Yea? We can hear the emotion in your voice.. it's uh.. well.." he drifted off

"I know you probably don't like talking about this but.. the whole world.. you fans they want to know.." he spoke and I nodded for him to go on. I knew what he was getting at and I was mentally preparing myself not to break down in front of so many people

"We want to know how you're doing after that situation with... Shawn Mendes..?" He asked

"I mean I could be better but I'm healing I have some great people by my side, my parents, Ariana and even Taylor and Selena.. and of course my fans" I said and smiled sadly

"Good that's good to hear. I know all your fans want os for you to be happy" jimmy said and I smiled

"Now I'm sorry but I wanna know what these lyrics mean.. if you'd tell us?" He asked me

"Uhm.. uh sure" I said and he nodded picking up a card

".. my name was safest in your mouth
And why'd you have to go and spit it out?. Oh, your voice, it was the most familiar sound. But it sounds so dangerous to me now. I have questions for you. Number one, tell me who you think you are. You got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart. Number two, why would you try and play me for a fool? I should have never ever ever trusted you. I have questions for you." Jimmy read out and I sighed and closed my eyes trying to not break down

"It's okay if you don't want to" He said

"No it's just a little hard right now.. the wound.. it's really fresh.. I get a little down if I talk about it but.." I broke off wiping a few escaped tears and someone shouted "don't cry" and I looked at them. It was a little girl. I smiled at her and she smiled back.

"So they lyrics uh.." I said nodding to jimmy and everyone looked at me expectantly.

"Uh I've had a bad history with my boyfriends - I wouldn't like to go in detail with that- but he had promised me he wouldn't hurt me and I was a little skeptical at first but I eventually agreed to be his. We had a great relationship but of course this is real life not a fairytale.. something wrong had to happen" I said sadly smiling

"I trusted him a lot. Aloe more than anyone.. whenever he'd come back home from the studio or anywhere I'd be wearing for him.. our relationship was perfect whenever I would hear someone say his name it would always bring a smile to my face.. I was so in love" I admitted. I had never said "I love you" to Shawn.. never in our 7 months relationship.

"But when ... stuff happened... whenever I hear his name I feel like hiding away. I feel so endangered. I feel like I can't live on with my life anymore but I have friends like Ariana. She's been with me through this. She's an amazing best friend."

"I'm so sorry.." jimmy said

"No it's okay. What happened, happened. We aren't meant to be" I said smiling through the tears