My brothers best friend

Chapter 4

Here is a picture of the beautiful Derek.

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"Hmm baby wake up." Derek's sweet voice spoke In my ear. I felt his warm kisses trail along my jaw and my eyes fluttered open to his blue ones. "Time to get up for school." He laughed, his freshly brushed teeth flashing me a smile.

"No." I muttered and pulled my pillow over my head.

"Josh is going to meet us at school. Won't look right if we're late." I pulled back and gave him a look.

I didn't say anything, just continued to stare at him, my happy place.

But what if we were in over our head? What if I was just another girl in his line of women to take home?

What if this was everything to me and I made sacrifices and he left me?

My silence must have been unsettling to Derek because he furrowed his brows and shook his head.

"No. Don't do that El. What's wrong? Why are you overthinking this?" He sat both of us up and cupped my cheeks in his palms.

"Derek, this, us, it isn't realistic." I whispered, afraid to lose him but realistic enough to see the issue.

"El, why? Why is it not? Because of my past or because of your brother?" He was upset now, his hold from a moment ago vanished and he was now standing at the edge of my bed. His voice had element from its previous soft husky one, to a hard cold one.

He was overreacting but he had brought up a good point.

What about my brother? What would he say to this?

Rhetorical question, he would kill him. And then ground me for life.

"If it's because of Josh then we'll figure it out, together. If it's because of my past, well El, I can't change it. It is what it is but I'll make the future amazing. I won't hurt you, I'll take care of you. I promise." His voice wasn't as rough as earlier but his guard was still somewhat up.

He was vulnerable, I could see it in his face. I'd never heard of him settling down. I'd never heard of him going slow. This was all too much.

"Derek, my brother will destroy you." I spoke gently, but started to move towards him, closing the gap between us slowly. "This isn't going to work." My words spoke negatively, but my heart was reaching out through them.

"I'll make it work. We'll figure it out with Josh." If it hadn't been completely silent, I wouldn't have heard what he said.

I was face to face with him now, well about as close as I could be with my 5'2 height.

Actually, he hovered over me. Like a protector to me.

I stood on my tip toes and wrapped my arms slowly around his neck, and placed my lips to his.

His body reacted immediately, and pulled me closer. It wasn't as sexual as our other kisses, this kiss was gentle, like he was promising me to stay.

I pulled away, knowing it was time for school.

I didn't want to leave. I wanted to run with him. I wanted to forget the rest of the world and focus on us.

Us? We're we an us? No, we couldn't be with Josh. He'd destroy this.

"Derek, we can't tell Josh right now." I told him, my face showing serious.

"El, I can talk to him. He'll understand." Lies. Those are lies!

"No. Let's just spend time between us for now, we'll tell him soon." I pleaded with him.

His blue eyes were circling my own. I could see the uncertainty in his eyes but there was no option. This is what I wanted for now. "Okay El."