Feeling Broken

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   About six months ago I was diagnosed with scoliosis. When I got to see the angle my spine was at I was very alarmed. It was a nerve wracking 40/60 degrees. I needed to get a brace either that or surgery so, I went with it. What I didn't know was how much it would effect everything I did. I felt helpless. It got to the point where I couldn't even pick up my pencil when I dropped it (And I still can't). I felt broken and I started cutting. My brace still restricts most of the things I do. Every few months I have to go to the hospital for my spinal check up. I have to wear my brace until I am 17. You are most likely thinking 'Why is she telling me this? I don't care' the answer is I am on my way to the hospital right now. Anyway the next chapter is going to talk about my recovery. The song above makes me cry every time I listen to it. My depression is believed to just be a phase but, it has been three years since then and the wound in my heart will randomly reopen itself making me feel insane.-
         Moon

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