Best Friends

Chapter 3

A/N- Listen to the song and then you will know what's happening when he listens to it. 

The good thing about being suspended is I'm not in trouble. My mom thinks he deserved it, and my dad is just glad I know how to fight. My brother on the other hand is worried for me.  He didn't say anything I could just drive it.

After supper my brother comes into my room and awkwardly sits down on my bed. 

"Err how are you doing?" Now that was a stupid question my best friend just died of course I'm doing just fantastic. I give him a what-the-fuck-was-that face and he soon realises that maybe he shouldn't have said that. Then he starts to ramble on about some stupid song on his phone.

Oh yeah because I care so much about that right now, I thing sarcastically. Why was he-

I'm cut off of my thoughts when my brother stands up ready to leave my room. 

"Yeah so I'll leave my phone here so you can listen to that song, but give it back when you're done." He yells me giving me a small smile. Handing the phone to me. Then walking out of my room. 

I shrug and grab my headphones before plugging them into the phone then laying down on the bed. 

When I turn in his phone I see the song he was talking about. Friend, Please by Twenty-One Pilots. I love Twenty-One Pilots! Katie loves I mean loved.

I start to listen to the song that I've already listened to hundreds of times before. My eyes start to wide though as I really listen to the words.

I feel for you but when did you believe you were alone? 

You say that spiders crawled inside and made themselves a home. 

Where light once was.

Petrified if who you are, and who you have become. 

Katie was a bigger fan than me so I start to wonder if she listened to these words or if they just flew by her head like me. 

You will hide from everyone denying you need someone to exterminate your bones.

Whenever I gave Katie a compliment she always got mad almost saying I was lying and didn't really care about her. I always told her that wasn't true but maybe I should've pressed on and done more. 

Friend, please remove your hands from over your eyes for me.

I know you want to leave but friend, please don't take your life away from me. 

That is when I start to cry. This is what I should've told her. I should've shown her how important she was to me and helped her with her troubles. If I only did that maybe she would still be here. Then maybe I could've told/shown her my true feeling and then she would've known how much I loved her. I guess I just always assumed she know how important she was to me.

Well that's the biggest mistake of my life.

After listening to the song I sit in my for a little but until I get restless. I get up and go out into the hallway and start to make my way to the door. I glare at my brother before I slam the door and clench my fists as I storm down the road

After walking for a bit I calm down. Then I start thinking about my parents. I just lost my best friend for all they know I could be trying to kill myself right now. In fact they haven't really tried much to help me through this at all! All they seem to care about is that I got in a fight with some kid at school.

I slow down and glance behind me.  As I realize my brother is the only one who tried to help me. I pushed him out even though all I wanted was someone to hold me tight and tell me it was going to me okay... and... someone tried too and I glared as I stormed away from him.

I whip around and start sprinting back to him.

I get inside the house and ask my where were my brother is.

"Oh Jakey went to his room sweety" she coo's not even stopping what she is doing. Without giving her a response I start walking up the stairs. I know that I sound selfish but I'm mad at her right now.

I went to 'Jakey's' room and laughed a little bit knowing he hated being called that. He prefers Jake but mom still calls him Jakey.

I knocked on his door scared he would reject me, since I already rejected him once but went inside anyway when I heard his muffled voice call "come in" through the door.

When I went inside Jakes room his eyes widened obviously not expecting me and expecting mom or dad. I took this as him telling me to leave so after my cheeks turned slightly pink I turned around. Then stopped when I felt his hand on my wrist stopping me from leaving.

Without warning him I spun around and hugged hum as tight as I could.  I was scared that of I let go of him he would leave me like Katie did.

He started to rub circles into my back as I started to violently sob into his chest muttering things about how much I missed her and how much I wanted her to be with me right now so I could do all the things I didn't do.  Say all the things I didn't say. I blamed myself 100 percent for what happened to her. It's much day and everyone should know it.

Jake started whispering comforting things into my ear.

"It will be okay", " It will get better ", "It was her choice you didn't know that this would happen".

It seemed like Jake didn't blame me for what happened to her. The thing is though that it is my fault. 

She needed love I was too selfish to give it to her. Top selfish to tell her how great of a friend she was. Too selfish to prove it... 

A/N- DAMM CADEN IS DRAMATIC!!!  But then again how would you you feel if your best friend/love interest died...  NOPE NOT THINKING ABOUT THAT!!!  Anyway have a lovely day! (1074 words) 

-Jason