Inevitable (louis tomlinson love story)

18-misunderstand

Masrya pov

It was two a: m , and I can still hear my sniffle , my pathetic sniffle over him , remember how I said 'I don't care ' turned to be not so easy , I can feel my heart break every second pass  to a thousand piece , you know why? Because in every second passes , I see the same picture over and over again , his hand on her cheeks , and her hand over his , soo adorable , it's not like he cheated on me  , but did he really had to lead me on ? Couldn't he just forget about me? Maybe he thought of me as a hanger for his problem, as a relieve from the stress, maybe he wanted us to be just friends. but how he kissed me , he looked at me like I'm the most beautiful thing on earth , which I'm not but he makes me feel so , there's one last option I didn't think of , maybe he thought that if  have someone else he would forget about her and that's why the boys helped him so much they wanted him to let go of the past , obviously , I was nothing but a mistake , a disgusting piece of shit , just a pathetic girl for him but you know what's more pathetic , the fact that after all what I said , I still can't think of him as the bad guy .

Suddenly my nightmare came to my mind , the one I had on the plane , god I totally forgot about that one but now I remember every single detail , how he didn't love me , not even consider it , I didn't want him to , I knew him for a few days for god's sake , but still , I had put  so much hope into him , it's my mistake not his . I felt a salt drop of water fell to my phone , so I raised my hand to wipe my face , just like he whipped  hers , and with the memories ; many tears fell , like a river in the magical forest , my heart gained some sort of strength , I have this feeling of physical tiredness , every bone hurt like I have been beaten up but I also have a huge amount of emotions stored at me , it can keep me up all night , my heart is like an elementary base , a bump will explode any second , I also cried when joe cheated on me I also felt betrayed but you know what's the difference ? that I liked Louis more ? no .

That I didn't expect to be fooled that fast ? also no

But the real reason is that I was so stupid to do the same mistake over again , I once heard a say

'if someone betrayed you once , they're mistaken , if you trusted them and they did it again , they're still mistaken but you're stupid ,  if you trust them anymore and they repeat it , they you are mistaken '

I can't help to think of how stupid I am , I shouldn't trust someone that fast , but here I am laying down on the bathroom floor , whipping my tears over him , someone who didn't even  try to clear things up with me before going back to his ex ' I'm not mad at him ' I thought as I removed my tears ' he deserves much better anyway , someone to make him happy , someone to love him , someone who he can love . ' I know he has this girl now , and it's not me , he doesn't give a damn about me , I feel like a fool for trying , oh my god I'm such a drama Queen , why do I even waste my tears over a miserable fancy ? from now on Louis Tomlinson is out of my life and my mind for good . I don't wanna see him .

Next morning

Louis p.o.v  I feel  horrible cause I didn't pick her up , management called when I was with sara and I had to excuse myself , it  took more time  that I thought  , talking about an upcoming tour , I tried calling masrya to apologize for not making it , it was  a total jerk move ,but she wasn't picking up , can she be that angry ? I really am worried , how did I let her walk through the streets of London by herself ? she doesn't know the way , I'm such an idiot , god that all make me look like a jerk  …

My door bell rang and I went to open it , it was  liam , harry  and ashton ; our friend from 5sos ,

"how ya doin man ?" liam patted my back , " masrya ain't answering my calls , I'm worried " I told them .