Room in My Heart (Random Things)

always at the same door

Afraid, scared, frightened
In front of this door
I always freeze staring them
I cant make any single little move of my legs
I even cant make any single action

Freezing
All my body being freeze
Trembling
My body trembling before i can hold the handle

When i force my movement to make any single act
My hand just can only reach the handle without i can pushing them
Even when i force my heart,
My body said something different

I want to open this door
But i cant
I want to see what is behind this closed door
But something is holding me back

I lost my direction
I lost my motivation
I lost my hope

But i still have the dream
Now, i just need to find someting
To help me make my dream come true
Even if i just have very little percentage
To reach it

But

Problem ---> what and how

2018 June 22
Fridayana