overprotective or jealous?:jenzie

reminiscing

i jump as i hear the thunder and see the lightning outside of my window. i hate thunderstorms they scare me to much and they remind me of my past.

when my dad left me and my family it was storming out super bad. i was so scared for him, my mother wasn't she wanted to go yell at him and force him to get back home. she didn't find him and the anger turned into sadness. she drunk a lot that night...out at some bar. decided to drive home drunk and got into a deadly car accident. and was rushed to the hospital. when they found out she was drunk she had to pay a lot of money and got a DUI. also lost her license.

after the accident she wasn't the same. she was always mopey and drunk. she stopped caring. it wasn't even a surprise when she took her own life last year. to say i was sad about it would be an understatement but i was also happy. i wouldn't have to put up with her and her bullshit anymore. thankfully though maddie was 18 so she could take custody of me.

and that's why i'm scared of thunderstorms. if only my dad didn't leave. my mom would still be alive and we would all be together. the past 8 years of my life wouldn't of been so hard. but my dad did run away and my mom was depressed and theirs nothing i can do about it.

i start to cry as i feel i'm starting to have a panic attack. i start to shake. i look around me thinking of all the ways i could die right now. and the only other thought that passes through my mind is...

i need johnny..

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