I haven't slept that night . Thoughts about Jacob made me uneasy. Our conversation echoed in my ears. I rolled several timed in my bed, twisted and turned , trying hundreds of postures. No..!! I couldn't even close my eyes.
I switched on the lights and looked at the clock.1:30AM . The clock hands were creeping to make the time as slow as possible. I cursed that moment...!!!
I felt pity for Jake's sister..Sarah.!Her image filled my mind. She is so unlucky to miss such a good brother....How I wished I had one like him! Her image filled my mind.
Jake surely must have a complicated past. That must have made him so strong....but every person are destined to have a moment which can defeat them.. Why is God being so cruel sometimes..????
As a fact, God was cruel in my case too. But He did ease it a bit. ...He erased my memory ! Nothing about my past tortures me. Suddenly I heard Asmi's voice in my head,
'The dawn is a place of happiness....'
I hesitantly got up from my bed and tip-toed out of my room..I climbed the stairs and went to a corner nearby Jake's room. It had a stupendous statue of Virgin Mary. I knew only she could help me. There was still a burning candle which lit the statue.
I knelt down and closed my eyes.
I said my prayers as low as a whisper. I felt a little relief as I mouthed out each word. Tears pooled my eyes.....
A few minutes passed and I got up. God will show me a way out.
I turned to go back . But then I noticed Jake's room open. I went in to check him....the room was empty. In his bed I saw a half-opened book. 'Poems by Frost'. I took it and looked the page he last opened..... It read...'miles to go before I sleep..and miles to go before I sleep. ..'
I replaced it .I wanted to see him now.!! Where has he gone at this hour?? I looked through the window and saw him walking through the beach....
I didn't wait for a second thinking. I hurried through the stairs and with all my speed reached the sandy shore . The moon was up in the sky. I slowly put my steps forward ......I didn't know what to say !...But I just want to see him.......!!! He stood facing the see ...his shadow so erect in the moonlight... I went and stood at a distance from him, facing the sea.
He turned his head to me and I turned to him ,smiling.
"What are you doing here?" He asked me in a surprised voice.
