you never walk alone《Bts》

Dear no one💐

Jan 16, 2018
Dear... no dairy?

Everyone can be whatever they want, right? That's what most mom's tell their children when they're little. Well, before life hits you like a train, let me tell you that's a fucking lie. Not everyone can be what they want no matter how hard you try.

You could be trying to learn how to play the piano, learn another language, dance, sing, or get straight A's for as long as you want, but still fail. That's life. you either were born with it or not, simple. And there's not reason to be sadded, see for instance I wasn't born to be happy.

When I was five, my first grade teacher has to call my mom because I haven't been doing any work at school and my grades dropped. That keep on going for the rest of the year, that was also the year I repeat and the year my mom scream so loud I think everyone in Korean could hear her.
The next year wasn't any different except for my teacher, however before going to Christmas break my teacher call my mom and this time she told my mom i should see a consuler, because "being so sad at such a young age is not normal." Mom wasn't so enthusiasts of the idea but that year was the first time I want to the psychology. But sadly it wasn't  the last.

Most of my childhood was based in going from a psychology to another, at some point my parents decided  it was enough and I stopped go into the doctor. I was okay for a little while, I make it to Big hit meet the most wonderful people I could've meet. Sadly a year letter my depression decide to make the greatest come back ever, or so I thought until a few months ago. But that's a story for another time. Somehow I was able to hide it from my lovely members; although i think tae was suspicious, and if he did he didn't say anything maybe he didn't care or he didnt know or maybe my head is to fuck up to actually know.

Last week I have an appointment with my new psychology and she said that maybe writing thing down will help. I don't think so, but it wouldn't hurt trying, right?

Hey, long time not see.
Love yourself
J🍀