She's Back (rewriting/editing)

Forgiveness??

"Asking forgiveness is easy but, its hard when the person you asked forgiveness doesn't give it to you that easily."

She was there on the floor kneeling down while I'm in front of her, she was crying so hard that you wouldn't even really understand what she's saying. I just look at her with an emotionless face.

Flashback

I went to the living room and saw Minji or as I say Y/N. And she was there in front of me trying not to tear up. She ran to me and hug me but I didn't respond at all and pushed her and she landed on the hard cold floor, and she seem shock and I just look at her with a cold face.

I started laughing and she seem shock.

"You! Stop your act Park Minji or I say Park Y/N wait no Kim Y/N," I said.

"How do you know I'm Kim Y/N?" she asked.

"I found it out today, well actually just now around 10 minutes before you came," I said.

"Jimin mianhae (sorry), Jimin let me explain please."

"No need I know what you want."

"You do really how!"

"You want me to suffer and you want to seek revenge because I cheated on you with your fucking childhood bestfriend."

"Yes! I did, but let me explain more and now I change what I really wanted so let me explain." She held my hand but I pushed it away and told her to not dare touch me at all and that she disgust me.

"Jimin please let me explain please."

"Huh?!! do you think I will make you explain, and plus I know you want me to fucking suffer, and your plan succeeded you saw how I suffered without you or I say the old Y/N, and then when I let go of her and fell in love with you or I say Minji and now I found out who you really are and what you wanted from me it fucking hurts, it hurts so much knowing you don't love me and you played with me.Yes!! indeed I know I played with you and cheated with you, but then I changed and I think you saw how I change and I really meant it when I say I love you. But then you just played with my feeling and it hurts knowing you were alive all along and suffered for 6 years without you in my arms, and knowing you were alive but acted like we're strangers at first and then didn't bother telling me you're my dearest Y/N. And to add up you wanted to take revenge because I hurt you. You went over board my dear wait bitch. If only you waited for me to realize how I felt we should been happy and not hurting like this, we should have enjoyed being a married couple, but no you choosed it this way. So you now you regret it huh, wait no you don't because you're acting right now that you regret it and everything you're doing are all lies,"I said sobbing heavily.

She didn't say anything for a while and she spoke. "I'm so sorry Jimin please give me a chance please," She said.

Present

"Minji wait Y/N please just leave," I said.

"Jimin please don't do this babe I love you and I regret everything please belive me,  I know it's hard to belive me right now but I really do regret doing all of this please do I'm begging you," she said holding my leg.

"Then why did you do it even though you know that someone is going to get hurt in the end you're selfish Y/N just get out now," I said.

I pulled her towards the door and pushed her out and I slammed the door right in front of her face.

I'm sorry but you hurt me so bad, I need some time to think on what is going on.

Y/N's p.o.v

I'm too late!! He's gone and he will never forgive me. Why do I have to be this stupid with all the IQ I have why I'm I so stupid with love? Why was I so blind to not see that he loves me? I was really blinded by revenge like what Sana unnie said and what the others said. This is all my fault, the love of my life is officially hating me, this stuff I did didn't went in plan, but I need him and onlh him. I need him to forgive me.

He just really slammed the door right in front of my face.

Well I'm going to just head home and go back tomorrow, hopefully everything will be back like the way it is before.

I was just heading home and I was a crying mess, thinking about Jimin and a drop of water landed right on my face and then I look up it started raining god, I'm not even half way home I'm still in Jimin's street and I'm still near his house and I just can't go and knock and tell him if I can go and stay there because it's raining and I need a place to stay, he won't even open the door knowing I played with him.

So I just head home even though it was really raining hard I didn't care anymore if I get sick and finally I arrived home. And when I went inside Sana was there looking at me in shock and she went to me, but I just passed by her I didn't want to talk to anyone.She was calling me but I didn't dare look back or even stop walking or even respond to her, I just walked to my room completely ignoring her.

I head to my bathroom to have a long ass bath and I saw a blade and cut my wrist and my thigh while thinking about all the pain that was going on. I love him and it's all of my fault and after 2 hours I was done showering and went to my closet and wear an oversize black hoodie for me to sleep on. I feel so tired and I feel like a walking body without a soul. I felt so week and lifeless.

I went to bed trying to close my eyes and hope tomorrow everything will be alright and back together and hoping he will forgive me.

"There are stuff in this world we regret doing, but what can we do it was already done you can't change it anymore it's already there it was part of your past and will also affcet your future."

My Caramels another chapter done sorry if this is crappy, but I tried and sorry for making you wait, but I've been really sick because of my monthly thing that girls have every month and I had so bad cramps and I barely can't move. But now I'm ok and guys for bts I seriously am confuse where they are, others said they're in Saipan and they said they're in Taipei but if they are in Saipan I'm from that small island 😂😂 I just wish I can meet them, but then sad life my parents are strict and won't let me go out and go hunting(jks I won't hunt them cuz they need space and I want them to have fun here at saipan) ehhh it's ok I will just dream of them and if by chance I do meet them I will give them privacy I will just say hi or give them a smile in case, but I know even though they're here I still won't meet them and even tho the island is so small I can't just go out cuz my parents are going to get mad. But to be honest I can say I'm old enough(*cough cough as if*) to go out but I'm a good girl who follow their parents(tsk tsk as if).You know what I'm going to stop 😂😂.

~Your authornim, Hana