The Lies That Kept Me Silent

Chapter Two

I'm quitting my job today. And interviewing for one a few towns over as an assistant editor, for a column in their smallest local newspaper. The only iffy thing is the idea that I don't speak. But I have my whiteboard and I've found with that jobs jobs you only need to listen and do. I finally decide to stop stressing and get off of my Harley and go talk to my friends before school officially starts. They all greet me with hugs, which usually I would refuse. But today I need the extra encouragement. Eventually my underclassmen friends go to first period and the rest of us seniors are stuck waiting for second period. So we can take our first finals of our last couple of days of highschool. I throw in my ear buds and study for my calc final. My long wavy dark brown hair hangs in front of my face. Every few seconds I shove it out of my face so I can see out of my glasses. I sit there telling myself so desperately to focus. Nevertheless it's all damn  gibberish, but this grade determines whether or not I graduate. And I need to get out. Get out. Sounds beautiful doesn't it? Leaving it all here. The mess I've made. And maybe find someone, but I doubt that. I've tried everything, online dating in real life dating. They never stay. Suddenly a hand waves in front of my face and I rapidly pull my ear buds out of my ears. It was my friend Lealah, "Hey M. You good?.." I nod and slip my white board out of the front of my book bag. I'm just a little nervous, got a job interview later and I have my calc final next period.
 
Lealah nods and returns to her work as if it doesn't matter. But I get it we all have tests to prepare for. I have twenty minutes to my calc final. I decide to ride down to the fast food restaurant down the street and get some food. I haven't eaten a full meal in a couple of days. I got food and ate quickly before parking and jogging to my calc final. The rest of the hour and a half became a blur.