Let Go

empty home.

Dear Reader,

I have taken it upon myself to finish off Harry's journal. I figured it would be the least that I could do, considering he never really did like to leave things unfinished. We were alike in that category, so maybe that's why he gave it to me.

It's been a month since his death, and the lads and I didn't know exactly what to do. The fans figured out Harry's suicide before we could announce it publicly, and it made me a bit disappointed. I don't know what for, but I was.

Maybe I was disappointed in Harry for taking his own life to be with the one he loved. Everything was just so empty around the place, and I have to admit, it was getting to our heads. Louis once thought that it was all just a nightmare and went looking for Harry around the house. It was hard breaking it to him again.

The only one that seemed to be okay was Liam. I'm not sure why, though. Liam loved Harry like a brother, yet here he was acting as if Harry was never even here. Maybe he was just mourning on the inside. I've been told some people do that.

Louis was pretty shocked at first. He basically refused to believe it, but soon accepted the fact that our Harry was truly gone. He wasn't even the one that found the curly-haired mess.

It was terrible.

It was right before a concert, and Harry said that he had forgotten something in the dressing room. Of course, we didn't think that he was actually going to kill himself in there.

Lux walked up to Zayn, asking him if he could take her to the restroom because Lou was busy with 5 Seconds of Summer. Zayn, of course, said yes and led her down the wide hall to the bathrooms.

What Zayn told us, was when he passed the dressing room, the door was slightly ajar, so he decided to check in on Harry to see if he needed something. With Lux in his arms, he pushed the door open, and boom. Harry hanging from the ceiling.

Lux witnessed her best friend's death.

I don't think she understood what was happening, but when Zayn came running back, I think she had a pretty good idea.

A boy that lives in an empty home,

Niall Horan