Let Go

band members.

Dear Reader,

I'm not sure if Harry is disappointed in us, or if he's somewhat okay with our split up. I'd like to believe that he's somewhat okay, but he probably isn't. But that's just Harry. He doesn't want us to throw away our dream just because he left. He was always selfless, even if he thought differently.

I don't blame him for anything. I don't blame him for her death, and I don't think he was being selfish. He was in pain. I know what that feels like because I feel it right now. But I just wish he could have confided in us. Though I'm not mad at Harry, or myself and the lads.

Of course, I didn't want to let him go. It's hard to let things go. But I don't think that's the hardest part. Starting over is. Having to let go, and start over without something you're used to and love. It's difficult to do. But I've let go, even if I didn't want to, and I'm starting over. Everything I do from this point on is for her, Harry, and everyone else that I love dearly.

Because I can't start over without them.

A boy who lost his band members,

Niall Horan.