Love and Life (gxg)

Prologue

Growing up in a province both gave me nightmare and a wonderful childhood. I grew up with boys kaya nadala ko ang pagiging galaw boyish paglaki but babae pa rin naman ako and alot of people always tell me im pretty kung hindi lang daw ako boyish gumalaw. That made me hate my cousins cuz heck ayokong sinasabihan akong tibo or tomboy dahil lang sa galaw ko. I still have my long hair, by the way.

Anyways, I grew up being so innocent and careless. Grade 6 na nung namulat ako sa love na yan when my classmate in MTAP wants to court me. I didn't know what to say kasi first time ko yun. Kabadong kabado ako nung sinagot ko sya sa text pero after a few hours binawi ko rin kasi sobrang takot ako baka makita ng Mom ko. We ended up being "M.U" lol.

1st year high school nung mas lalo akong namulat. I started hearing new words such as "libog", "momol", "blowjob", and etc. because of my classmates. They always talked about love life. Lagi nilang chinichismis yung mga bagong mag on and wala silang pinapalagpas. Lagi mo silang makikita na kinikilig and all pag may mga boys na manliligaw sakanila. And ako? Wala. Im that person na walang alam sa love and walang nanliligaw because I told you earlier, I grew up innocent and careless. Means di ako marunong mag ayos and I have the most innocent face. Hindi katulad ng mga kaklase ko na may pa hair clip and all.

I remained like that until I met a girl in facebook when I was 3rd Year highscool. I was 15 at that time and she was already 20, but age didn't blocked our way. We talked and talked for 6 months until we confessed our feelings and became official. I didn't knew I was bisexual before I met her. Our relationship was strong until our 1 year and 6 month anniversary.

I broke up with her.

I broke up with her because I fell inlove with a girl. But hey, I didn't cheat ah. That's why I broke up kasi I never wanted to lie and all so I became true. But she was mad and she blocked me on all her social media accounts. Walang pinatawad ni isa.

Back to this girl. This girl named Julia. Damn her. She was the strongest, the coolest, and the most awesome girl I know.

She made me complete and at the same time she made a huge hole in me.

Sa kanya mas lalong nag bukas ang mata ko sa realidad ng mundo. I was 17 and she was 23 when we became official and that was the best day of my life.

And also the worst decision of my life.

To be continue..

-akathehitler