My Random Feelings

I lied

I lied.

Just like that, I lied.

I thought that if I lied about what really happened I could believe it myself, but I was wrong. I wake up the few time that I can actually sleep from nightmares of that day. Or cry myself to sleep and hyperventilating just by the memories. I didnt know what to do and I went a few months not talking about it. But im really good at hiding what happened, its easy to fake a smile, so people do take a closer look. So here I go letting random people that read this "book" know what I went through....

I was nearly raped by my ex at school, touching me in places without my say, and I couldn't do a fucking thing. And the police that was investigating the situation didn't believe me and thought I was making it up. This wasnt the first time its happened to me too.

But please if you something like this happened to you, tell someone don't keep it to yourself, it doesn't have to be a guardian, you can tell a best friend or sibling. And if you need a friend I'm here too. Remember that what ever happened was bot your fault.

Don't stay silent.