she was the one at fault

"The Dusk"

Jade's pov*

I was so into my study that  i couldn't even  hear  the   cute laughters of  my siblings  which  were  playing cheerfully  outside  in the  hall  of  our house ..our house was not much commodious but  was beautiful  enough that anyone can dream of  having such  a house.. the house hall  was  good  big  enough  to  be  served as  a playground   for  children   actually that house  was the  consecration of good  times  when  my beloved  father  was alive 
*jade! My daughter i bought this house just for the sake of your comfort  my doll..so that we  can live happily ever after  there* 
i recalled  in my mind giving a deep sigh of  mourning
These words of my father always tear me apart but also give me  strength always  that  he is no more  with me but his memories are..his memories serves as  a pain reliever making me forget that period of pain which i endured a few years ago  but that  only serve as a temporary  assistance.
What i have become?.what the time made me?..
                          
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Jade was suffering from depression from the last six years..the incident changed her life totally...that  happy person in her got lost somewhere ..she forgot how to smile..that jolly person in her  which illuminated her personality  was put out of sight and had taken a place in dark...she has became a beast  out of cage..but she never showed this side of her personality  to anyone
She owned a very much confused personality ..sometimes she shows as she is the one who can love anything in any state and sometimes she becomes the most  ireful person
She hide a tornado of mixed feelings inside her
                      
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She gave out a deep heavy breath as there  was heavy weight on her lungs
.*But instead of having  a luxurious room in that house i owned  the store ..yes a store  room  where  i  am continuing  my living  much like  an old stuff  which is kept in a store room having no importance at all from the last six years  since my father died...

*Ah! What a pitty for being such an ill.fated person*. I said to myself in  tired voice of disappointment..

I was totally  lost in my thoughts that suddenly  my siblings rushed inside my room  ...*yeah !yeah! a store room whatever*
They started running here and there in my room  making me  show anger on them but then they started cuddling with me ..this pure love  melted down my   anger and that anger converted into divine love of  pure feeling
Their  faces were flourished with the signs of  adolescence
..their eyes were flooded with happiness and loyalty....their  happiness always put me in ecstasy.
these eyes which were full of  dreams and having will in them to nourish more and to see this  beautiful life  more   always make me  the happiest person of the world..those  little  silky touchés of their little fragile hands were my only gem
They were the only reason that i was tolerating   the insolent and boorish behavior of my step mom..cause i love my fraternals more than any other hoard of  the world
After playing for sometime with me they left me there alone with my books. i again  started studying  that suddenly  a  loud  sound  which was enough to tear my eardrum  startled me .my eyes became red with dander cause of  that strident sound of boofers  
I got up with signs of  wrath on my face and started to outside towards mom's room..my blood was boiling and i wanna scream at the top of my lungs to get my all frustration out  cause that shrill sound was coming from the room of my step mom..*.she  never have a sense of  civility for others ..*i  said to myself in distress..i came back to my room and let the door shut ..i laid down on my bed  and started recalling the things  .
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During these years ..jade became a totally changed person ...she cut herself  usually and  put herself in pain  just to get rid of the weight which was longing inside her  as time was passing out..
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Tomorrow morning i got up early at 6:00pm  as it was  my routine .l  got ready for school ..prepared breakfast and headed to the school..in school  i did a lot of work  on projects assignments e.t.c  as finals were not far .so i have to make up my all lectures and learn them.
After school i headed to coffee shop..served many customers .. At the end of my work i was cleaning the tables that i saw a familiar person stepping in the shop ..i saw him from the corner of my eye so that he couldn't notice me or he got any clue that he is being noticed..for my surprise again he was that black suited scary man whom i saw  the previous day in coffee shop .he ordered coffee but did not drink it and left without having coffee..yesterday