soulmates : a garmau fanfiction ✓

chapter 13

♡ chapter 13 : those three words ♡

[ warning : this chapter also contains a suicide attempt ]

Aphmau's Pov -

Lately, Garroth has been out of it. He has been stressing out about his very busy schedule of modeling and his youngest brother's suicide attempt. So, I've decided to stay over at his place for the past days. I've noticed some small things during my stay.

{flashback}

"Thanks for letting me stay here to care of you." I told Garroth.

"No, thank you. I think having you is better than being alone." He said, walking towards his room. "I'll got take a nap, I'll cook dinner later."

{end of flashback}

Whenever he lays his head on my lap, I can feel tears falling on my lap.

{flashback}

We watched the TV as Garroth was laying his head on the arm of the couch.

"Garroth, you can lay on lap if you want." I told him.

Garroth nodded and proceeded to lay his head on my lap.

I looked at him as he closed his eyes. I looked back up. Seconds later, I felt droplets falling onto my lap. Is Garroth sweating or crying? It's not hot though. I just continued watching the TV.

{end of flashback}

He has been wearing long sleeves very often, even during the night. Whenever he doesn't wear them and wear shorts sleeves, I can spot some Band-Aids on his wrists. Every time I go in the bathroom, I find a razor blade in the medicine cabinet, next to a box of Band-Aids.

{flashback}

"Garroth! I'm going to shower before it's nighttime!" I shouted, entering the bathroom.

There was a bunch of Garroth's pictures on the floor. I chuckled. Was Garroth admiring himself? I picked up some of the pictures and then one of the pictures cut me. "Ouch!"

It started bleeding. So, I quickly opened the medicine cabinet to get bandages. I found a box of them but next to it was a razor blaze, just a single blaze. I grabbed a Band-Aid and immediately closed the cabinet. Why is there a razor blaze? Garroth's razor is in his shaving basket.

{end of flashback}

Whenever we go to his shoots, he goes to the medical room, where there's a witch doctor, and comes out without the Band-Aids. But after his shoots, his Band-Aids and long sleeves are back on.

{flashback}

"Hey, you!" One of the camera crew exclaimed at me. "Where's Garroth?"

"Uh, I don't know." I shrugged, sitting beside Garroth's dressing room.

"I'm here, Sir." Garroth came back in the room from the entrance with Band-Aids and the long sleeves gone.

"Good. Garroth on set now!"

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It was finally the end of the shoot and Garroth went out again. Ten minutes later, he came back with his long sleeves back on him with blank face.

I got up and went next to him. "Let's go home?" I asked.

He nodded.

I looked over at his arms and noticed the outlines of his bandages.