Don't Ruin My Reputation

If Only

"Fuck."
Wonho cursed pacing back and forth in his room. He was staring down at his phone.
Shownu took one of his earbuds out.
"Are you alright?"
"What does it look like?" Wonho snapped and continued to pace.
"What's wrong?"
Wonho sighed putting his phone in his pocket.
"Kihyun won't answer my texts or calls."
Shownu cocked his head.
"And you're worried so much about it because you don't love him? Right?"
"Shownu shut the fuck up!"
"I think you should just go next door and ask him what's wrong."
Wonho gnawed on his lip before huffing and walking out of their room.
He hesitated to knock on the door but eventually he took a deep breath and did.
However, he wasn't greeted by Kihyun.
"Minhyuk?"
"Yeah?"
"Where's Kihyun?"
"You're a dick." Minhyuk hissed once he asked him that.
Wonho blinked a couple of times.
"What?"
"You have no right to know where he is right now."
"Minhyuk please,"
"Aish! I was right about you. You're nothing but an asshole." Minhyuk slammed the door in his face.
Wonho knocked again but obviously there was no answer.
"Minhyuk!!! Please!!! I need to know where he is!!!"
Wonho's voice cracked. He could feel a lump forming in his throat. He just wanted to see his boyfriend.
"I'm so worried about him."
Minhyuk could hear him through the door. He sounded absolutely miserable.
Minhyuk almost felt bad.
He finally opened the door to Wonho with teary eyes.
Minhyuk's expression softened.
"Whoa, dude, don't cry,"
"I'm not crying! Please just tell me where he is." Wonho voice came through muffled because he was covering his face.
Minhyuk inhaled and exhaled deeply.
"He said he was going to the top of a hill with a cherry blossom tree?"
Wonho's could feel his whole body freeze.
He darted down the hall way and Minhyuk watched him run.
He wondered how Wonho known exactly where this place was.
-
Wonho had ran for at least 10 minutes straight before he finally reached the bottom of the hill.
He stood there panting while also looking around for Kihyun.
He finally spotted him.
Kihyun was sitting in the same exact place where they officially became boyfriends.
Wonho took one last deep breath before making his way up the hill.
Kihyun was picking pedals off of a flower one by one, but was completely silent.
"Kihyun?"
The voice was immediately recognizable for Kihyun.
He refused to look behind him and continued picking at the flower.
"Please talk to me.. what did I do?"
The shakiness in Wonho's voice was incredibly noticeable.
"Who told you I was here?" Kihyun finally spat out still avoiding eye contact.
"Minhyuk, he wasn't going to but I begged him to."
Kihyun stayed quiet and set the flower down.
Wonho eventually sat down next to Kihyun, causing Kihyun to scoot away slightly.
It took everything in Kihyun not to just hug and kiss Wonho once they were next to each other.
That's all he wanted, but he knew it was the opposite for Wonho.
"Baby--"
"Don't call me that."
Wonho sighed and put his face in his hands.
"I'm sorry for whatever I did. I don't remember what I did but I am so sorry for it. I fuck everything up. That's all I've ever been able to do. I'm so fucking sorry."
Kihyun finally looked over at him.
Wonho was actually trembling.
Was he also crying?
Kihyun felt his heart ache.
This reminded him of the night at the hotel where Wonho spilled his past trauma to him and cried in front of him.
"Wonho.. ?"
A hiccup was heard from underneath Wonho's hands.
Kihyun physically couldn't handle this. It hurt him too much.
Kihyun pulled Wonho's hands away from his face and held onto his damp hands.
He leant in and kissed both sides of Wonho's cheeks, making the tears stop.
Wonho sniffled and looked Kihyun in the eyes.
Kihyun frowned and sighed.
"Why are you even crying? You don't care about me. You're faking this."
Kihyun let go of Wonho's hands.
Wonho wiped his eyes.
"What are you talking about? You think I can just fake this shit?"
"That's what you told I.M."
Wonho felt his stomach drop.
How did he know? Who told him?
"Kihyun no.. it's not like that at all."
Kihyun's softened eyes then turned into a glare.
"Oh please, I heard it come out of your own mouth. You just want to use me. And I really thought you cared. How could I be so stupid?"
"You heard me--?? No Kihyun no trust me it isn't like that at all. I just, I have my 'reputation' you know? I've talked to you about this. I can't let people know I'm not actually tough."
"Well it's me or your dumb reputation."
Wonho bit his tongue and stared at Kihyun.
Kihyun scoffed.
"You're actually thinking about it oh my god. I'm glad you feel that way."
He stood up and started making his way back to his dorm.
When just then he felt his hand get grabbed and was twirled around and pulled into a kiss.
Kihyun's eyes widened when Wonho whispered, "I choose you."
Kihyun's face became hot as he smiled and tightly hugged his boyfriend.
He knew he fell in love with the right person.

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"Why do we have to pick up the room?" Changkyun groaned looking at Jooheon's incredibly frustrated face.
"Hoseok said he has something important to tell us! I'd like the place to look nice."
Changkyun just whined in response making Jooheon grab his arm to pull him up.
The two ended up stumbling backwards to where Changkyun had Jooheon pushed up against a wall.
Changkyun smirked and Jooheon pushed him off.
"You're so weird!!! Pick up the room."
Jooheon huffed hoping Changkyun wouldn't notice his bright pink cheeks.
"Yeah whatever." Changkyun smiled and started picking up the garbage off the floor.
The room was spotless within minutes thanks to both of their contribution.
Perfectly timed, Wonho knocked at the door.
Jooheon answered and was greeted by Wonho and Shownu.
Must be really important if it's a group meeting.
Wonho and Shownu sat down right away with no time to waste.
Jooheon and Changkyun looked at each other and then back at Wonho.
He looked stressed to say the least.
"Alright. Since all of you have been my closest friends since high school you all know how every year, I've only ever used people for popularity and sex when it came to relationships. But, that's changed for me."
Every one in the room looked at each other now confusingly except maybe Shownu.
He already knew what was coming and it made him smile.
"You all know Kihyun. I've been crushing on him since the start of this year. We're already two and a half months in of school and I've really only had one accomplishment, and that was Kihyun finally becoming my boyfriend. No, he's not a temporary boyfriend either. He'll be staying. I know it's sickening but he really makes me feel things I've never felt before with anyone. He makes me feel loved. I've never felt that before. So hopefully, you guys will accept that I have a boyfriend that I care for more than anything right now and will still be my friends?"
Every one was pretty much speechless at this point.
Was this the Wonho they knew?
Perhaps not.
That Wonho had marked his grave at this exact moment.
Shownu immediately spoke up about all this.
"Hoseok, I fully accept this more than anything you've done throughout all my years of knowing you. I'm happy for you man."
Wonho and Shownu exchanged smiles but diverted their attention to the two dumbfounded boys trying to process everything they just heard afterwards.
"I.. I don't know what to say. This is all so new to me? But, you are my friend so I also accept your decision and I am also proud of you." Jooheon nodded and smiled.
"Thank you."
Now, it was Changkyun's turn.
He was too busy staring at the floor with his hands folded.
"I feel lied to. What even is this group anymore?"
Wonho sighed at him.
"I know, originally, we were supposed to be intimidating, but Kihyun gave me a reason not to be anymore."
Changkyun shook his head.
"This is all so weird. Who are you even?"
Wonho became aggravated.
"I'm a boy that came from a broken home and has felt nothing but weak and a failure of a son all his life, but when I finally find someone who changed those feelings for me, you get upset?"
Wonho spat causing awkwardness around the room.
Changkyun fell silent with nothing to say in return.
"Well, I'm glad at least two of my friends aren't complete assholes. Come on Shownu. Goodnight Jooheon."
Jooheon waved as Shownu and Wonho left their room.
"Why aren't you accepting all of this?" Jooheon asked quietly.
"I need to sleep on it."
Changkyun sighed and lay on his bed.
Jooheon just turned off the light and drifted off to sleep.

[ 1:04 am]

Wonho was awaken from his phone vibrating.
He grabbed it off of the top of his drawer and read the message.

[1] New Message from I.M !!!

I'm sorry for the way I acted, this is just different to me. Maybe I can make it up by throwing a movie night at me and my friend's place this upcoming weekend? You can invite Kihyun obviously and others if you want. Sorry again.

sounds like a plan. and your apology is accepted.
read at 1:08 am

// shits wack rn , ,,,
for these next few chapters there will be some timeline jumps just because im nearing the end of this book.
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