Warning: Thoughts are about to get deeper and a little dirtier and some swear words will be thrown😊
As ethan walked away I couldn't help but bite my lower lip. I wanted him like really fucking bad. But, I guess, some people can't always get what they want. I loved ethan and that was for a fact. But....I didn't know if it was him or Grayson I wanted. God, why can't I make up my young teenage mind?! But then again, I can't blame god for my own stupidity. I loved ethan but there was just something about Grayson that made me crave his love. I just stood there in the hall way, dumb founded. Grayson walked infront of me and my attention was drawn to him. "Heyy, how was second period??" He smiled. "Eh...boring." I shrugged. "Usual." He smirked. "What's next?" I asked pulling out the schedule from my back pocket. "Lunch. Care to sit with me?" He asked. "Sure." I grinned. He put his hand out and gave me a smile. For a second I stared at his hand, confused. "Give me your hand." He said. "Oh." I laughed and smacked my hand onto his. I was still kind of confused. Why did he want my hand? He started swinging our hands and skipping. "Grayson, what are you doing?" I said laughing. "Skip with me!" He demanded. I laughed and tagged along. So together we held hands and skipped to lunch together. Yeah, I know, cheesy shit. But it only got cuter :). I could imagine that people were probably judging us so dad at that moment. But I was ok with that. As long as Grayson was smiling, so was I. He directed me to a table with three other people. All boys. "Hey guys this is y/n." Gray introduced me. I awkwardly waved. To be honest, I felt kind of uncomfortable. "Y/n, this is aaron, james, and kian." Gray pointed to each one as he said names. They all smiled widely. I sat down and we all at and had conversation. I honestly felt so much happier than I had in a while. I think I may have cracked some real smiles to. Grayson made me so happy in so many ways. But ethan was just so hot. He reeled me in. I wanted so much more of him. Soooo much more. He was so bad but it felt so good. I wanted his lips on mine. Enough fantasizing over a boy I didn't have a chance with and never would (Hey it's me here kash herself just wanna say this is like so #relatable). I left the lunch room that afternoon with a large smile on my stupid face and grays arm wrapped around me. I loved this boy. But what about his smoking hot brother? Oh my gosh why can't I just have them both?! Can't it just work lime that for like just a little bit? Ugh. I was in love with two adorable people. I was having a really hard time keeping my mind on one of them. It was crazy how two people could take up so much space in my mind. All day people were asking if Gray and I were "a thing". They must have seen us hanging out all day. But as bad as I wanted to say yes I had to tell the truth. Gray seemed to like me. I wasn't jumping to conclusions though because I've learned that isn't the best decision from the last time I had fallen in love. He did things to make me think he likes me but I was soon crushed when I saw him kissing another girl I thought was my best friend. She knew I loved him to. She only wanted revenge because the guy she liked, liked me instead. And that wasn't my fault. Besides, I never even liked him back or dated him or anything so I don't see what the point of crushing my hopes and dreams was. I got home from school and went to my room. As soon as I sat down, I was called for. "Y/n." My mom yelled. "Yes, mom." I called back. When I got no response I knew that was my calling to go down stairs again. "How was your first day?" She asked as soon as I reached the bottom of the steps. "Good." I said and started back upstairs. "Hold on. Don't go anywhere just yet." My mom stopped me. I turned around. "So, I'm hearing that Grayson had been talking about you a lot." She said. "Really?" A stupid smile appeared on my face. "Yeah. I think he likes you." She smiled. "Pffft, are you kidding." I waved a hand and laughed as I walked up the steps. I took out my phone and went to instagram. I got a follow request and, oh guess who, obviously Grayson. I admired how cute he was in every picture. I was just laying there when I received a text....
To be continued
Yes I am just going to leave you like that.....now I guess if you want to know what happens next you have to come back
