when was the last time that you made a mistake
not a stupid one,
one that you regret so much.
well let me tell you one that i made.
i fell in love with a boy who broke my heart.
cliché
i know.
but what about the fact that he was my soulmate
i mean soulmate in a sense that he cared for me
he loved me,
well at least that's what he said
lie
he didn't love me when he stood at my door with
a box of chocolates and said that he was leaving me
for her.
for her.
i made a mistake that i regretted so much.
i gave my all to him.
my everything and you know what he did.
he took my all for granted.
but that was his mistake.
my mistake was continuously crying over him
and slitting my wrists when deep down i knew that he wouldn't return.
it was for crying when i saw them in the corridors and making a fool of myself.
it was also for trying to tighten that noose around my neck with the sole intention of dying.
and i regret that now because when was i ever going to get the chance to apologize to myself.
never.
and when was he going to realize that he broke me.
was it going to always be this way?
when would i realize that he never cared.
when.
my mistakes haunt me now because i'm labeled as
the mentally unstable girl
the emo-freak
the suicidal bitch
the cunt
the stupid girl
the attention chaser
and i'm sorry for doing all this to myself.
i'm sorry for labeling myself as the girl who was mistakenly loved.
maybe i am and will always be the mistake.
© Zeneisha Smith >>> 2018
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