A bit of Love Hate (a Neymar Jr fanfic)

chapter-4

I woke up sweating around 5 in the morning i started having my nightmares again...my past again started haunting me...my past without anyone to help me..no gerard,no mom, no dad ,no friends no one to care and no one to trust....HE was back even though it was just a nightmare.....i didnt realise that i started crying until i felt hot water droplets on my skin....just his thoughts make me feel so scared..... like i just want to go hide in a hole or something where he wont haunt me.....He is the one who gave me anger issues, also he was the reason due to which i had depression he was the reason i was in my room for months....he is the reason i dont trust any male species except my dad and brother but i am now i am over him but he still haunts me...i remember the first time i saw him i was love struck and the second his gaze was on me... he smirked at me just like ....neymar but at that time i was stupid to believe in love but not now i will never ever fall in love again and why did i just think about neymar right now...that arrogant prick....ughh what is wrong with me??i just lost all my sleep.....i looked at the time it was around 6:30...i decided to get a long shower and dont forget about my wonderful singing......i finished my shower and now i definitely feel better i changed in to my light blue ripped jeans and a plain white tank top which was tucked into jeans paired along with a short blazer and one of my favourite snapback i straighten my hair it looked really good....yeah baby my hair looks so good...i just loved my hair and to the final touch i wore my favourite white nikes..u see i have an obsession with white... i skipped downstairs it was around 8.... morning tan how was your sleep??shakira asked

i noticed she was already dressed up..beautiful like always

my sleep was good i lied what about your sleep??

wonderful she said ohhh and i heard your melodic singing she snickered i just rolled my eyes and and then saw milan and gerard coming down...awww milan looked sooo cuuutteee.....we all had breakfast with some jokes being cracked and left for the practice Gerard:u havent changed a bit tanya

me:what do you want to say Gerard

Gerard:u r still a tomboy

me:and do u have problem with that?? and i am not a tomboy i huff and cross my arms

Gerard:yeah u r definitely not a tomboy when u are wearing a snapback and nikes

to that shakira said..... Gerard stop irritating your sister and i dont find anything wrong in the way she has dressed i mean we are going for practicing and you dont expect her to wear a 6-inch heel right??to that i just smirked in Gerard's direction and he was like wow shakira you are taking her side instead of your boyfriend???to that i and shakira just laughed but i noticed one thing milan was very quite today i wonder why??we reached the ground and we walked towards the field almost everyone was there Gerard ran towards them and milan ran toward the stands with shakira behind him ughh that boy and his dad are just carbon copys of each other....i just stood there and alexis and marc waved towards me i waved back then i saw him with his bloody smirk plastered on his face i just ignored him and walked towards the stands and there i see the queen bitch sitting and doing her nails i just ignored her too and walked to tony

i saw thiago,milan and another cute toddler with blond hair....oh my freaking good lords the trio looked soo cute i went next to them and kneeled down besides them milan came to me and kissed my cheek...awww..i asked the cutie his name and he said it was Davi lucca...well olà Davi i am Tanya i removed my snapback so he could see me clearly

Olà tanya its nice to meet you he said kissing my cheek aww he was such a ladies man i wonder whose kid he is??? i asked where is your daddy to that he just started looking at field searching for his daddy and he pointed at neymar and neymar was looking at us he just smiled at me and waved at Davi... wait he just smiled... omg he knows how to smile..... is neymar your daddy?? sim he said i guess that is how you say yes in Portuguese neymar has a kid?? still he is so immature......i was playing with all the kids and neymar was giving me small glances during their match but i just ignored him but i was quite disturbed with the thought that he had a son but why am i caring if he has a son or not...i am so wierd...hey davi are you with Bruna i asked?? no not bruna its witch he whispered in my ear i suddenly started laughing hard and highfived Davi with almost everyone looking at us