My life

A lot has happened

Ok so first off, it's the summer! How great is that! But then there is all of the bad news. I'm going to be a freshman. Not that it's a bad thing, but I don't know if I'm ready to be in high school yet.

Anyways, the reason that I'm updating NOW is because something major has happened in my life that I've been debating on weather to tell y'all about it or not. Well, I've come to a conclusion that I should tell you guys about it.

So..... Gosh I don't know where to begin. Well, 2 years ago one of my good friends and me were having a sleep over. That day we were hanging out with her older brother and talking about random stuff.

Well, before you know it it's night time! Yay! 👎 Well, while we were in the same room together, my friend decided to leave he room to go to the bathroom. "Well wasn't that a great time to leave." Not. You see the quotation marks. 😖 So we just sat there in silence for a good while. She of course not back yet and we just..... well we didn't talk at all.

Until, he broke the silence. Who knew that this would change the way of my life forever!

He had his face shoved in a pillow at the time, but when he did the was talking to me. He said, "Can you keep a secret." Begin the joker that I am I said no. But of course he knew that I was kidding, so he kept talking.

I'm pretty sure this is how it went, "I think...... I think I have a c-crush on you." But imagine that as a little more muffled. By this point I'm freaking out screaming on the inside. And not as a good thing.

I just sat there hopping that my friend would come back soon after because I couldn't handle the awkward tension that was in the air. After a good while of sitting there shocked I just say the only thing that would ever escape my mouth, "Oh....."

I mean how much weirder could it get, am I right?!

Finally after what felt like years, my friend FINALLY comes back into the room. And of course she has no clue what just went on just a few minutes ago. DANG ME FOR SAYING YES TO KEEPING A SECRET!

Well, then we finally went to sleep, me freaking out that he might kiss me while I was sleeping. But of course that's just me.

Well, I kept that secret for a year. Then I finally told my friend. It felt like a house just got lifted off of my shoulders. But, to my dismay, she didn't believe me.

So I told her to go talk to her brother about it. And she did..... but in the weirdest way possible, through a vent.

Well, he confirmed what I had said, but he didn't know that I was in the room while he was speaking to her.

She was shocked at first, and mad, but also weirded out. I was half of those things.

Well life went on, A year later..........

This is now 2018, and I had stopped thinking that he liked me, because he never ever shows his emotions like all men. But what he said to me one day caught me off guard.

I was playing on the computer when he tapped my shoulder, I looked over at him to see that he's holding an iPad in his hand. But it's the words typed on it that freak me out. It says, "Do you like me? Be honest." I was FROZEN. My friend was in the same room as me but not paying attention.

I had to give him an answer, so I held up my fingers to show that I did a little bit. But, THATS NOT TRUE! I LIED TO HIM, AND WHEN HE TOLD ME TO BE HONEST! I'm such a bad person. So that's what I have to live with now.

But then a couple weeks later I get an idea. A FAKE BOYFRIEND!

I have been going along with my "boyfriend" for almost about a year now..... the only reason I came up with the idea was because I wanted him to stop being all, Telly. If you know what I mean. It just felt really weird to have one of my good friends older brother have a crush on someone like ME! I mean why not someone who is actually in your grade?!

And all of this is still going of till this day.

I just feel like I have to put this out there. I really hope that the guy who likes me DOES NOT read this.

Hope you all like this little update. And I'm super sorry for not updating sooner. Nothing other than that is really exciting enough to wright down.

I'm open for whatever questions you might have for me so feel free to ask about anything.

Love y'all! ❤️