She went to bed too late
Tears flowed from her eyes thinking about what she ate
She wished she could just forget everything that makes her weep
So tired but yet can't seem to fall asleep
She'd wake up too early still smelling like alcohol
Wishing she wouldn't wake up at all
Getting dressed and doing her makeup while her head is pounding
The thought of people going to school like this is astounding
Her phone was always silent
She got mad easy and started to get violent
Even though she smiled all the time
Smiling and laughing so much it could've been a crime
In class she had good grades
If only they knew about her blades
She had a boyfriend and they seemed perfect for each other
She was an all star athlete just like her brother
She'd go to the bathroom alone
Lock herself away to be on her own
Crying uncontrollably wishing this would just end
Then walking out like nothing just happened
The way she acted at school you'd think she had it all figured out
Not up at 4am stressed and crying over homework knowing she still has to do a workout
Not training out of practice for 3 hours a day to be the best
Nothing was ever good enough she'd protest
Nights got longer and her eyes grew wary
She ditched the lunchroom for the library
Her boyfriend said she never made time for him anymore
Her mornings got earlier as she woke up before four
Dark circles under her sunken eyes
Now her clothes weren't her size
She convinced herself she didn't have time for breakfast so she'd pass
She couldn't stay focused in class
One night changed everything as she greaves
She went to school the next day wearing long sleeves
No one seemed to notice her wrist covered in gauze
They complimented on how skinny she was
Her grades started went down and she starting talking with a slur
Her parents were so disappointed in her
She locked herself in her room all the time
She kept insisting that she was fine
Her grades no higher than a twenty
Her eyes were nothing but empty
She always seemed so dazed
She walked alone in the hallways
Throwing up her dinner
She believed she needed to be thinner
Staying up late hating herself for being runner-up
Wishing she wouldn't wake up
She passed out at school
She wondered why everything felt so cruel
Her parents even concerned about her weight
She became so filled with hate
Rolling up her sleeves her arms covered in cuts and scars
Sometimes staying up all night writing her memoirs
Finding the courage to complete her vision
Making her decision
She stayed home from school with a blade cutting her wrist
People noticed since she never missed
Rolling up her sleeves a final time as she took a deep breath
She was ready to welcome death
Closing her eyes and feeling the pain shoot up her arm
She wondered how she could do so much harm
She watched the blood as it poured out of her
Then slowly everything turned into a blur
The blade had done its job like it has for years
She dropped it as she fell to the floor in tears
They heard her fall and broke down the door
She had already collapsed onto the floor
Her cold blank stare was chilling
Now somehow everyone felt responsible for her killing
But now it's too late
She will never graduate
Her life is over in the blink of an eye
No one got to say goodbye
They never seen how much pain she was in
Or how hurt she was within
The pressure was too great
It was one of the reasons she met this fate
It wasn't their fault
She never told an adult
