Torn Between two lovers

I met this man and it was from a blind date so we talked on the phone a lot day and night it wasn't a time where we wasn't calling or talking to each other until one day we decided to see each other so we talked on the phone preparing our self for our date tomorrow i was so happy and nervous I finally got to see the man I was feeling on the phone as he got closer my heart was racing and then a knock on the door my heart dropped, I opened the door excepted to see a ugly man but it was not the case

He was handsome as can  be he was 5 ' 11, brown skinned, nice hair cut and his body was just right in my mind I said damn then he reached over and gave me a hug I was so excited we sat down and talked and got to know each other a little better We had so much fun but it was time for him to go so we wrapped up our conversation as he was leaving out  I wanted to pull him back in but I didn't soon as he got home he gave me a call I was loving every minute of our conversation even more he was telling me so many thing bout him where he came from, what he went thru

and still he standed strong as ever It was like I knew him for years but yet it was only weeks so we started to see each other more and more doing all the thing we liked to do I wasn't bout to settle down yet with a man I barely even knew even though we talked on the phone I wasnt ready to jump into a relationship I wanted to wait so we was on a friend ship level but he wanted more i can tell i told him to hold on my other line was clicking my cousin called me  asking me to go out on a night on the town so I did my hair and got dressed but my phone kept ringing even though he wasn't my man I couldn't explain to him why I can't see him cause I was going out and it was ringing and ringing I ignored it cause I was trying to get ready then just as I putting my eye lashes on there was a knock on the door and it was dee I was shocked I told him I wasn't answering because  I was getting ready to go out he didn't like the sound of that so the tone of his voice got deeper i can tell he was getting mad but he acted like it was okay so he talk for a little while and said be safe gave me a hug then left so it was close to my cousin coming to get me we went out and enjoyed our night had fun danced with a lot of men and had a lot of drinks but i couldn't get him off my mind so i went to the bath room and called him i couldn't do nothing else but think of him his phone ranging he pickup fast i was waiting on u to call what's up i was drunk and couldn't hardly respond he said i see you enjoying your self i said not really I'm nt with you we both laugh and i said i just called i was thinking about you he said i was to i told him i will call him when i get home he said okay i can tell he was disappointed in me. i said bye and hung up the phone.

I use the bathroom and I went back out to finish party dancing and drinking and that's when I realized I was falling for him more and more I haven't felt this way about a man since my man got locked up in a long time the way he talk the way he look the way he touch me my mind was gone I had to snap back out of the day dream I was having of him i enjoyed the rest of the night and I didn't have no worries I was so drunk n love that when I got home I passed out he calling my phone and I seen a text from him gm how was your night but if I told him all the things I did I knew he would of got mad then there was a knock on the I dnt know who that is they knocked again I opened the door and there stood this light skinned tall man I was madly in love with he out of jail he want to surprise me I didn't even know he was getting out I was over whelmed and happy giving him all the kisses and hugs I can i can't believe this the man of my life was here but damn wait I had feeling for the other man now I dnt know what to do fuck it I'm bout to take John down while he here. smelling good and looking good we got to hugging and kissing and touching everybody part it's getting heated this is what I been waiting for then all of a sudden my phone ring.

He ask me is I'm gone get that I said no its no body and the phone kept ringing and ringing so I turned it off turnt the music up this is what  was waiting for and after we was done hours later I realized that I didn't know what I wanted to do now I'm torn between two men damn so me and John laid up all night this is all I want but I couldn't keep dee off my mind I was confused I couldn't think but I was enjoying John more and more  we was engaged before he went to jail for 6 years and it was the best relationship I ever had but I was nt about to tell John about dee just yet and he never asked me i was just praying that dee didn't knock on the door so I went into the bathroom turnt my phone back on and seen it was 20 text message and 19 missed called i had to come up with a quick lie I told him i left my phone in my car I was drunk and forgot to get it he ask me other questions but I had to lie I hated doing it but I had to so I told him that I will come get him at 2 o clock be ready he said okay i hung up the phone realizing John is. still here I got up off the toilet and I had to come up with a lie John I have to make a important run today and you about to go to work call me and we can finish enjoying our self.

He said thats cool so he started to get dressed and he asked me what did I want to eat for tonight I said I don't know I'll tell you when I call you before you get off he said okay and got in his car and went to work now we've been close to 2 o'clock and I'm getting ready for my date with d and as I'm pulling out the driveway my phone started ringing it was dee asking me was I on my way I figure I just pulled out the driveway an I told him I'll call him when I'm outside he said okay so as I'm getting to his house I have time enough to think but I still don't know what I'm gonna do yet I didn't know if I forgot to tell him about John or not but I knew soon I was gonna have to tell him something I don't know what I'm gonna do I was confused if I wanted John the love of my life or did I want D who I starting to fall in love with