Therapy & Mr. Park

I'm Begging You

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"I really want to know how you're doing, Jimin." Jungkook blurted out. He bit his lip, and started to regret asking it. He's never wondered about Jimin....not ever. When they used to be friends then sure...friends are supposed to worry about each other, and wonder how the other is doing. However...not after what Jimin had done... "S-Sorry." He quickly says, trying to make up for his mistake.

What's the matter with me? Jungkook thought to himself as he looked away from Mr. Park. I'm....I'm not this kind of person. Why can't I just go back to being the way I was before?

"It's okay." Jimin answers, secretly feeling hurt that Jungkook changed his mind. He can understand why though. Not many guys want to chat after something like that happened.

"So... Is there like some medication I can take or something that just fixes me?" He asks.

Jimin is a little hurt by this. He understands that Jungkook and him haven't exactly been on the best of terms, however he wants to help, and jungkook's poor attitude is making it harder and harder to maintain that desire.

"Not really." Jimin finally answers. "The brain is a tricky thing. Firstly, no medicine is going to make up for six years of being gone, and secondly, you can't just take pills to turn your personality back to the way it was." He explains as kindly as possible.

"So then what am I supposed to do?" He asks. "Just come talk to you every day in hopes that one day my old self will return?" Jungkook knows that he sounds desperate, but he really wants to forget about all of this. He wants to forget about the accident, forget about seeing Jimin again, forget about everything.

"...I'm afraid so." Answers the therapist. "So let's get back to therapy. Shall we?" He asks, biting back his bitterness.

"Okay..." jungkook sighs.

"How do you feel? I mean, do you feel resentful, desperate, sad? Explain to me; walk me though your feelings."

"I...." The dark haired boy can't help but feel embarrassed. He's never been good at opening up, not ever. "....desperate is the most prominent one." He answers.

"Oh?" Jimin writes this down.

"I....I feel desperate not only to have my old life back, but to have my old personality back. I already told you all of this, however...I want to add that I've felt very alone.  I...every night it's like I'm not where I'm suppose to be. It feels like this life isnt the one I'm meant to lead. Do you understand?" He asks.

Jimin gulps, his mind going back to when they were in high school. He wonders often about whether or not his life would've ended up different if jungkook had said yes that day.

"I do understand." He says sweetly. "Have you considered staying with some family while you get back to your old self, or maybe starting up a relationship with an old girlfriend?" The thought makes him hurt.

"What good would that do me? I hate my family, and if I'm not with the girl now, then it's obvious there were issues in our relationship before. No point in starting it up again." He sighs.

"Okay..." jimin clicks his pen. "What do you feel like you need, Jungkook? I notice that most of the time, people can give themselves a pretty good diagnostic of what they need." 

"I...." He thinks about jimin's words. "I don't know..." He finally answers. He feels so lost in himself. He's never been made speechless before, and he's never felt as though he doesn't know what's wrong with himself. Except for once...

His mind goes back to that day in high school. It was June 12th, the sun was just high enough for the trees on the backside of campus to create shade. He ate cold leftovers that day....ones that jimin had shared with him.

They were best friends...inseparable...

He remembers throwing the glass bowl to the ground, listening to it shatter. He watched the way jimin flinched away from him....

Everything seemed to be silent, and all at once, jungkook was having to face something he'd been running from all this time...

"Hello? Jungkook?" Jimin waves at him gently, trying to get his attention.

"S-sorry." The dark haired boy stutters as he shakes off the memory. It's one he doesn't care to visit often.

"So as I was saying," jimin goes back to whatever he was saying. "I want you to get on some anti depressants and then start-"

"I think I know what I need." He states, making jimin stop and listen. "I...I think I need to remember. I mean, if I can't be the way I was before right now, then maybe I can re-create myself."

"Hmm," jimin thinks over this prospect. "Theoretically, it sounds like it would work. However, the mind is a tricky thing- as I said before- you could try to recreate yourself and end up totally different. However, I think it's worth a try." The blonde therapist smiles.

"So then...will you help me?"

"H-how?" Jimin asks.

"Well I can't just go do everything I've ever done by myself. I need someone to come with me." He does his best to sound cheerful, however he understands jimin's discomfort.

"I-isn't there someone else-"

"There isn't." Jungkook answers, looking into Jimin's eyes. "Everyone else knows me already. They'll be to concerned about how I'm doing instead of helping me get back to my old self."

"I don't know, jungkook- I mean Mr. Jeon-"

"I'm begging you." Jungkook looks at him with glistening eyes, and Jimin feels his heart begin to hammer in his chest. Those eyes are the same ones that he...before Jungkook said those things so many years ago...

"Okay..." He answers, feeling very unsure of himself.

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Very short chapter. Sorry, lovelies! 😭❤️

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Also, what do you think went on back I high school? What made them go their separate ways?

.....how much is Jungkook going to relive with Jimin? 😏😏