Teen Pregnancy (completed)

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*2 days later*
Erika's POV- it's been 2 days since I found JJ in his crib...d-d- dead. Durning these 2 days the doctors have done tests. Cops have been to our house. Everyone has been questioned a million times by the police. They think that someone purposely killed JJ. Today we're meeting with the doctors to find out what they got back with the tests.
*they go to the hospital*
We get to the hospital and go in with the doctor to his office. We sit down and we go over the events and everything that happened that night from me finding him to just make sure nothing was fishy. They then told us that JJ had died from SIDS. SIDS stands for Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Jake and I held each other tight and cried. Jake and I went home that night devastated and broken. I went to JJ's room and sat in the rocking chair in which I rocked him every morning and every night and whenever he was fussy. I held his little blanket in my arms and rubbed the soft blue fabric. All I could think was that it was my fault. I asked the doctor and explained the situation about me not knowing I was pregnant and he said it wasn't my fault and it was something we couldn't really stop. All I did was cry. I felt horrible about everything. All I did was blame myself. I then straightened up the room, made it nice and neat. I put his clothes away. Threw away garbage and whatever was in there that needed to go. I then turned out the light and locked the door from the outside. I went to the safe and put the key in the safe and locked it. Stella wasn't here. I think Sunny took her to Shannon's house. Yah, sunny took her to Shannon's. At least I know my one child is safe and not dead. Yes I sound harsh right now but to be honest I don't give a fuck. Sunny came up to me and told me dinners ready. I went down and I sat at the table with everyone sitting and eating with the room dead silent. I didn't eat. I played with my food and looked down not wanting to look at anyone. Jake came over and sat beside me and put his arms around me and i cried into his chest and soon everyone was in a big group hug. I felt love but i didnt feel happiness. I whispered to Jake what i did with the key to JJ's room just in case he wanted to go in there. He didnt. That night we had planning to do. Planning for a funeral, what outfit he would wear, what casket to buy. Where he would be buried, who would do the service, who was going to come, where it was going to be held at. And mainly just coming to terms with the fact our son was dead. Jake and I then went up to our room and decided to pick out our outfits just to make things a little less stressful, we picked out Sarah's and what JJ will be buried in. I held the tiny outfit in my hands as tears streamed down my face. Jake hugged me, we then laid in bed and fell asleep in each other's arms