I Need You

Monster

Kyle's POV:
I can't believe I just left him there, crying and beaten up. I'm such an asshole. Should I go back..? I don't think he would like me back. I could here his cries from against the door. I felt tears run down my cheeks. Sometimes I can't control my anger, but I can't stop it either. Even if I try so hard, it never fucking works.

I wish I would have just jumped off when I was sitting on the edge. I would've not done any harm to Stan, physically at least. It hurt me so much that I just left him there. I can't take it. I opened the door and ran up to him, he was still on the floor. He couldn't get up, his eyes all red from crying. He was curled up in a ball. I grabbed him in my arms. "Stan?! I'm sorry! I really am! I didn't think I would go too far. I'M REALLY SORRY." I screamed while crying all over him. He didn't respond. It took him a while to.

He pushed me away and stood up, but he fell down. I grabbed his hand, but he smacked it away. He finally stoop up. "Please, do me a favor. Don't talk to me. I can't even stare at you anymore. I know you didn't mean it and that it was your anger, but it still hurts." Stan sobbed.

"I get it." I said and waited for him to leave. Our school was next to this creepy ass hall way? I guess you could call it that. And there were apartments right besides us. There were some stair leading to the apartments. I stepped back and ran and grabbed onto the stairs. I hopped on the stairs and went up to #32. That's where my friend lived. No one really knows about her. She lives alone and she's 17, 2 years older than me. She moved out of her parents' house because they had an argument. And she's also homeschooled and gay.

Her name is Natalie. Whenever I'm free, I come to talk to her about what's happening. She's like my therapist and a friend. I met her like a month ago. I knocked at her door and surprisingly she opened it quick. "Ky-Ky! What's up! Come in!!" Nat smiled.

Cinnamon ran up to me and brushed his fur on my legs. He purred while I patted his head gently. "Cinnamon really likes you. Even though you're not his owner.. Hmph.. He doesn't show me that much affection. He fucking hates me lol." Natalie laughed.

"Oh.. By the way.. I got a girrlllll!! Heheeh." Natalie smiled. "You're all excited. She better be treating you right." I laughed. "Sammiee!! Come here, I want you to meet someone very important to meee." Natalie yelled.

Natalie was always smiling, although I know what she does up at night. She just smiles, so she can make people feel happy and good. "Hmm? Who..??" Nat's partner asked. "Kyle, this is Samantha, but I like to call her Sammie~~" She giggled. I waved at her and then looked back down at the floor. I don't really like meeting new people, so suddenly.

"Kyle is Bisexual, he likes this one dude. He told me once." She smiled.
"Hmm. That's nice. I'm bi too." Sam smiled. I smiled back at her and started blushing. No girl has ever smiled at me or even liked me. That's why I was surprised.

"So.. Have you told Stan..?" Nat asked.
"Nope. I don't even wanna talk to him anymore." I frowned. "Why? What happened?" She worried. "Y'know the usual anger. The usual asshole I am.." I sighed. "Hey.. it's not your fault, kiddo. Everyone has been an asshole at least once or twice." Nat said.

"Yeah.. But fuck. I hate how I treated him today."

"Hmm? What do you mean?"

"I beat the living shit out of him, just because of this stupid thing. It was Stan and me and two other kids. I was really mad and my anger took control of me. I said, that I wanted to be left alone and that I would literally kill anyone if someone follows me and of course Stan had to follow me." I sobbed.

She looked at me and hardly knew what to say, so she just hugged me tight. "You know it's not your fault, right. Its just your issues. Not you. It's all gonna be okay. Natalie still loves you." She slightly smiled. I was laying my head on her shoulder, so she wouldn't see me cry because it's humiliating.

"It's not okay. Nothing is anymore. I lost my best friend. I left him a bruise on his cheek and made him bleed. Made him cry. He couldn't even stand up properly, because I was kicking him." I whined. I backed away from Natalie and brushed off my tears.

I
Am
A
Monster.