Sometimes,
I yearn for the feeling to not feel anything at all.
I lay awake broken from the day.
Unable to take back the words I used.
The drama I started.
Because I felt mistreated.I wish that I did not feel this.
I love you,
But you do not see the worth of it.I can feel death on my shoulders weighing on my body;
The tightening in my throat;
The sinking in my stomach,
And the urge to vomit.My first love was not a great story.
It was of pain.
One were I'm told to behave, listen, and have no opinion.I am told that I am loved.
Is it true when you hit me when you get too angry?
I never wanted to hurt you.I shouldn't have confronted you.
It'd be fine.
Fighting on my own is normal.I feel depressed.
It's like feeling everything and nothing at the same time.
Like I am drowning.
I'm suffocating from you.
YOU ARE READING
Tacenda
PoetryThe voices in my head, the scars on my heart, and all the words I would say, if you could simply understand.