Ironic and sad life facts

what we haven't been told

Hi !
My name is HOPE.
And Im about to tell you my story.

Well it all started the day I was born for sure. 4/11/2000 at 4:00am saturday.
Well at least that's what I've been told.
Because and actually I dont remember myself being alive until the age of 4. The age that I'm finally being able to go school.
I was physically pretty. I'm sure of this cause I saw some pictures of me at that age. I had smooth long thick hair. Clean skin with no dark circles around my eyes nor acnes on my face.

I was kind and loved by old people. but mostly disliked by children at my age. Cause and unfortunately I was selfish. Way too much. I'm still though. But less than I was.
Well let me skip this part of my life. I mean childhood. Cause it was so ordinary and innocent. Nothing special happened during it.
And lets go straight to that part that witnessed so many changes, precisely in my life. The part where I started to know how life works. And how it goes. The part that I finally learned the meaning of Regret. Hate. Cruelty. Anger. Sympathy. Kindness. Pain but most importantly hypocritism.
These words used to seem more complicated to me as a child. I have heard them in movies. In songs. On the street but never been spelt by my family. At least not in front of me. Cause and indeed they hide a lot from me. They never told or showed me anything that its worth in this life. They treat me as a child. And they always will. Maybe the cause is that I am the youngest in the family. Well it is.

They only taught me the basics in life. Like how to eat. Hiw to treat people. How to behave in certain cases. But never asked me how I THINK I should behave on those certain cases...

Well lets skip this part too. Cause talking about my family is a whole another story that requires fifty pages only to describe it.

A question that had always taken a big potion in my mind. And I actually never had the courage to ask someone about it:

Have YOU ever felt so depressed and sad even though nothing really bad happened to make you feel so ?

But when you overthink about it. You find out that this small little disgusted sight that was pointed to you by that person two weeks ago with no intensions or by fault. Or maybe it wasn't even meant to you. You just looked at that person at the wrong moment. That exact moment while he was pointing that sight to actually someone else but you thought it was to you ? And it's too late now. Your mind or I dont know whatever is in you head had already considered that sight as it was meant to you. And still remembered it until now even though it happened two weeks ago. Or even more. And it now makes you feel sad util you get depressed about it ? NO ? Never ? Weird. Cause reasons may be different from one another but effects remain the same.

While you are reading this. You probably think that I'm one of those sensitive ass depressed girls. That keeps crying over everything. And thats for sure the reason why she has serious dark circles around her eyes. Also one of those who mostly commit suicide at the end for being depressed during their whole entire life and couldn't stand it anymore.
Well if you truly thought about this. Then you're so wrong. Cause that's totally so not me. And I'll prove this to you. How ? By the fact that this story will end completely different than the way it started. And the person who started to write this is absolutly not me. Cause Im the one that's going to finish it.