Can't Buy Love

Simula

Simula

I stared at the ceiling all day long, which I always stayed up late to think of something until now I can't answer on my own. I wish the legend prodigy Sir. Einstein is still well and alive so that I can consult this problem of mine and begged for his advice and help me.

I really can't understand them.kahit pinipilit ko pang lawakan ang pang unawa ko. Why my life is always unfair? I sighed through out my frustration.

then suddenly someone knocked at my door.

"Anak Vivien, handa na ang hapunan." Mang Leila

I sighed again and smiled a bit

"At least at this house there still someone I can lean and rely on!.' I convinced my self.

"I'm coming manang!." I try to make my voice sounds happy.

I stood up and walk but I suddenly saw my reflection at the mirror.

I face the mirror then heave a big sigh.

"What's wrong with me?"

Napabuga ako ng hangin sa bigat ng dinadamdam ko, maybe if I will not share this thoughts and feeling to someone ay matutuluyan na akong mabaliw dahil nakakasanayan ko nang magsalita mag isa.

Everytime I look and take a glimpse at my own reflection in the mirror I cant stop to ask my self that, what's really wrong with me?

"Vivien hija okay ka lang ba dyan? Magagalit na ang mommy mo kung wala ka pa sa hapag kainan." Manang Leila sounds really concern now.

Its a big help na still may taong nag c-concern at pinapakita kung gaano ako kahalaga. She's so precious to me.

I decided to open the door and hug tightly the precious person I have, My manang.

"Nah! Dont bother to think na magagalit si mommy, parang di nyo naman alam na they dont want to see me kaya wala lang yan sa kanila kung di ako makasabay na maka kain."

Humiwalay na ako sa pagkakayakap.

Manang Leila gave me an awe look.

"Atleast hindi parin nila ako pinapalayas diba?." I laughed with a tears in my eyes. "Sakit bigla ng mata ko, pahipan nga manang baka may dumi haha.'' And immediately wipe the tears.

"Hija, they loved you." Manang whispered

Natawa ako. "Woah galing nyo na sa english ah." I mocked her to divert the topic. Love? Wait they loved me? That would never happen

She smiled at me and held my hand. "Anak ka nila kaya mahal ka nila. Huwag ka nang mag isip ng kung ano-ano hmm." Her, trying to convinced me through her words.

I shook my head in disbelief

Mahal nila ako kasi anak nila ako. What a basic logic, but that basic logic doesnt work with me and that's sad.

"Ah anak pala nila ako? I almost forgot, thanks for reminding me." I paused and smiled.

"You know what manang? Why it is always turned out that they can only see ate Kate and not me and turned out that ate is their only child while me? Yeah Im pretty alive but seems to be dead in their eyes."

I cant stand the atmosphere so I decided to walk and leave manang behind and went to Dining Area where my lovely parents and sister are there-------

------ having fun without me.

Pababa palang ako ng hagdan ay rinig ko na ang hagikhikan at tawanan nila mommy.

I paused and smiled. Wala akong maalalang memories na ganyan sila kasaya when Im with them.