Aaliyah pov
I woke up laying next to Devante confused as hell I lifted the covers up and noticed that I was naked I really started to panic then, I only remember us having sex and me saying I loved him that's it I shook him
"DE WAKE UP" I said shaking him harder
"what Aaliyah damn" he said jumping up
"this is wrong this is wrong" I said getting up looking for my clothes
"What's wrong" he asked confused
"this, us" I said using my hands so he could understand
"shit it wasn't wrong when you was digging your nails in my back and shit" he said showing me
I laughed "I did that I said walking towards him
"hell yeah uh fuck de go deeper" he said mocking me
I covered my face in embarrassment "w-was it bad was I bad ?"
he laughed "hell nawe had nigga shaking and shit you must be had some magic pussy"
I laughed but quickly stopped and looked down "did you believe when I said it ?"
"what when you said you loved me ?"
"yeah" I said playing with my nails
"If I didn't believe you I wouldn't had said it back" he said grabbing my face planting a kiss on my lips
I sighed "but how do you love me too if you continue to hurt me de I can't keep living like this, you put your hands on me multiple times and I'm scared of what your going to do next and this being over protective shit acting all possessive it's not gonna work I love you because I believe you can change but" I said looking at him
"you really wanna know why I act like that ?"
I nodded
"look you, dalvin & my family are the only that knows I have BPD, and I'm insecure about it as hell you think I like being like this, and seeing niggas throwing themselves at you I mean look at you Aaliyah, your fine as hell you don't think niggas want you regardless if you got a nigga or not and i'm scared that you gonna up and leave me for them no female has ever held me down the way you did in these past 3 going on 4 months anybody else would've been LEFT me and wouldn't give not one fuck about it so tell me tell me why you haven't left me already after the shit I done did to you ?" He said as his eyes watered
"I haven't left because I'm not any other person I didn't fall for Devante swing I fell for Donald Earle DeGrate jr this sexy light eyed color nigga" he laughed
"but honestly you think I give a fuck about those other niggas ? I don't and you gotta start trusting me like I trust you cause this putting your hands on me shit getting old quick now believe if you was any other nigga I would've BEEN left trust me, but I just can't do that with you it's something in you that I see but if we're going to work you have to continue to take your medicine and get better because if this ever happens again I don't think it'll be a next time with us and if I'm doing something that I'm doing that you don't like talk to me de" I said in all honesty
