Finally

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Okay so guys OVER HALF of this chapter is a flashback. So this symbol ××× is when the flashback begins and whenever it ends u will see the same thing. Hope u guys enjoy it ♡
-KPG (《that's my initials)

I walked into my bathroom and turned my water on warm. Shucked off my clothes and stepped inside the shower under the showerhead. I grabbed the shampoo and scrubbed my hair rinsed it out then put conditioner in my hair and rinsed my hair. After a good body washing it was now my least favorite part... shaving. I picked up the razor and felt the hard plastic. Then a flashback appeared in my head.

×××

It has been at least a week since IT happened. I broke up with Dilon, so at least he is kinda out of my life I still see him at school though. My best best friends ate still with me though. Like Joey (Graceffa), Shane (Dawson), Daniel (Preda) and Cristina (Grimmie). They were my closest friends. I was walking down the hall talking to Joey, I turned to my locker to gather my things when someone came between me and my locker. It was no other than Micah Hyde. He turned me around and propped one hand against the red lockers and the other was playing with my locket. I quickly snatched it away from his grasp.

"What do you want Micah!" I snapped.

He moved his lips to my ear "Come on slut how much will it be huh sweetheart" I could hear a cynical smile form on his face. He moved his face back in front of mine.

"Fuck off Micah" Joey said in my defense.

"Stay the FUCK outta this you fag!" Micah shot back at Joey. Then Joey ran off into Mrs.Osborn's classroom. Mica then put his focus back to me. He moved his mouth down to my neck.

Right before his lips became in contact with the side of my neck I saw Joey with Mark. Mark then pulled Micah off of me, and punched him in the nose. Mark hooked Micah's t-shirt and clenched his teeth. "If you touch her agian Michael Ray Hyde I swear you won't be able to walk!"

Mark drew back his fist again but Micah's friends pulled Mark off. I ran off into the bathroom and locked myself in a stall. After a few minutes of crying Mark, Joey, Daniel and Cristina came in the bathroom and knocked on the stall.

(Quick a/n: the few minutes of silence was the boys was asking if they could go in the girls room to help you plus getting Christina out of class just to be clear)

"Go away" I sniffled curled up on the toilet knees drawn to my chest.

"Come on Lilah open the door pretty please" Christina asked.

After a few seconds of thinking I got up, unlocked the door and walked out. They all gave me a huge hug. The hug lasted a good minute or two. Then Mark broke the silence and said "Lilah I'm so sorry I wasn't out there sooner. Do you want me to call mom? So that you can go home."

I nodded, Mark then pulled away from the hug to dial mom's number. Christina and Joey were still comforting me.

☆♡time skip you are now at home♡☆

⚠Warning suicidal thoughts and actions are in this lil part I will tell u when it is over⚠

I walked into the door way and then rushed to the bathroom. Once I was in there I turned on the shower, took off my clothes and stepped inside the shower. I then looked at my wrist and traced all the scars on it. And recited by memory on what all of them meant for me...

•For hearing our parents argue over me and Mark
•for the divorce
•for feeling worthless
•for being beaten
•for the bruses
•For being raped

And now another one...
•Slut shaming 

The blade went closer and closer to my wrist. When the cold hard metal blade touched my wrist and pierced skin a shot of pain went up to my arm and blood trickled out of the deep wound. I let myself sit there in the shower for quite a bit till the water made it stop bleeding. When I stepped out of the shower I properly aided the wound and put on my underware, bra and a sweatshirt since it was just me and mom.

Otayyyyy u are safe no more bad things

She was in her office. I walked out of the bathroom. Then I felt light headed. I brushed it off and walked upstairs to my room. Right in the middle of the steps I just dropped and fell to the ground. My mom rushed out of her office and called 911. Once the ambulance was here I blacked out.

☆♡time skip to where u are back at school♡☆

I walked into the doors of Mrs.Osborns classroom. And I could hardly focus there were people staring at me and passing notes to me. Almost all of them never even talked to me on a daily basis! Most of tne notes said 'you know you didn't have to do that' or I'm so sorry Lilah  u could have talked to me'. It really pissed me off.

Whenever Christina, Shane, Joey, and Daniel seen me they were bawling. Thats whenever I knew I Lilah Lee-Ann Fischbach was loved.

×××

I shivered at the memory, shaved as quickly as possible and then left to change.

Then I ran downstairs to get my leather satchel. So I shot Jack a text...

You: ready

GREENIE: okay on my way

You: no I can walk

GREENIE: no I'm not making you walk just let me drive over to your house

You: no I'm already on my way it's only a block or two away
(Sorry I don't know how long a block is)

GREENIE: NO I already put my keys in the ignition so stay

I ploped my butt on the steps and waited.

You: so I'm a dog now fine I'll stay.

GREENIE: good girl Lilah now stayyyy.

I rolled my eyes at the last text he sent and put my phone in my satchel.

A/N TIME
So I hope you guys liked this chapter. The song above is 'Secret For The Mad' by Dodie Clark. Feel free to comment I love to read them. By the way TheFaultInOurNights suggested I put music in my chapters to set the mood. So please check her out she is so nice and just really cool. Suggest my story to other Jacksepticeye fans if u want, tell them to check it out. I plan on making a CrankGameplays or markiplier x reader after my Jacksepticeye one is done so u guys decide. Vote and comment share to others. Love you all. And at the end of chapters imma start just putting my initials. Love u all. Word count: 1168
~KPG