His Omega

The Months After

I let out another cry as tears fall down my face and i lean over the toilet for the 13th time today as I vomit into it. My body shakes and I close my eyes and gag throwing my head forward. I feel the warm sensation make its way up my throat as I vomit everything up again. Well really its nothing. I Have nothing but stomach acid to throw up.

I whimper leaning back and flushing the toilet. I scoot away from the toilet and lean against the bath tub. I wish Carson was here. He is dealing with Pack stuff. It sucks.

2 and a half months after having sex and I of course got sick a month later and as anyone can tell I'm still no better. Carson really doesn't know. I live in my room because his family doesn't like me at all. I'm just a um.. a Distraction you could say so I stay out of their lives and they stay out of mine.

I feel the nausea subside. With a sigh of relief I stand and grab my tooth brush and brush my teeth nice and long hoping to get the horrid taste out of my mouth. I finish and push open my bathroom door and walk tiredly toward my bed and collapse on it not bothering with anything else.

Just as my eyes start to close a knock comes from the door. I let out a low growl but push myself off of the bed and to my feet. I walk over to the door picking up a hoodie off the floor on my way. Before I can slip the hoodie on I see myself in the mirror.

Tiers start to pool in my eyes as I stair at my refection. I look terrible. I am so pale and skinny it sickens me. Even though I see my arms and legs thin I see a small bump where my used to be flat stomach was. I'm so Fat. I run a hand over the bump sickened by it. It's not fair! Why am I skin but Fat?? Can't I just be Fat or Skinny?

The knock sounds again and I pull on the hoodie and some black sweats. I say as I open the door, "What??!!"

Standing on the other side is Maria. She look at me and whimpers, "Oh Michael what's he doing to you??"

I flinch as if she had slapped me. Now I'm Ugly. Great. I turn away and run back toward my bed pulling my covers over my head and curling into a tight ball starting to cry. I hate myself!!

"Michael! Are you okay?" She asks as she runs into my room and sits on the edge of my bed. She grabs the covers off of me and pulls me into her arms. I wrap my arms around her neck and start to cry into her shoulder feeling terrible.

"Shh.. Shhhhh... It'll be okay Mikey! I promise!"

"No!! DON'T MAKE PROMISES YOU CAN'T KEEP!!!!!!" I scream as I shove away from her anger over taking my sadness.

I growl and curl into a ball facing away from her so angry I start to cry again. I feel her hand set on top of my head. She runs her fingers through my hair and sighs.

"Baby?" I hear a new voice whimper. I open my eyes and look over at my mother and I feel a new sob make its way toward my lips as I shout, "Mommy!!" I jump out of bed and into her arms and cry.

She holds me and whispers sweet words into my ears as I just fall apart. I let all the tiers I've keep a secret from Carson come falling out.

After a while I slowly calm down curled into my mom's arms in the middle of my room. I don't even know what happened to make me so upset. I reach up and rub my eyes and look up at my mom who kisses my forehead and says, "Are you okay now Sweetheart?"

I nod and hug her close and whisper, "I just don't feel myself lately.."

"What do you mean?" She asks rubbing my back.

"Its just that, I've been getting sick and I've lost yet gained a lot of weight and Carson isn't around anymore. I'm locked in this room because his Family hates me. I feel like shit! I've been throwing up for the last month and a half and I just don't know what to do!!" I say slowly getting upset again.