Chani's Diary Entry: (Look at the collage I made!!!)
Dear diary,
Right now I hate my life. I found out who I kissed in my dream, and I'm pretty sure he likes Rowoon. Taeyang. I never, ever, ever thought that I would fall in love with Taeyang.
Now I'm graduated and I should be happy, but instead I'm faking it. I'm FAKING being HAPPY!! And it hurts like hell, too.
I just want Taeyang to notice me, but I'm too afraid to ask him out, or even see if he likes me. And I still think he likes Rowoon. He laughs at all of his bad jokes, hangs out with him a lot, and always asks for his advice with things. I just don't know.
But my biggest question is why? Why does have to be a guy that I like? Why do I have to be gay? Why can't Taeyang like me back?
I tend to lock myself in my room a lot, and I heard Youngbin telling the others it's just a phase, that I'm upset I can't be around my school friends anymore. But he knows better then anyone that I didn't have any school friends. He caught me being bullied one day at school. Apparently he didn't tell anyone.
I just can't really cope with life right now, but I will NOT pull a Jaeyoon and run away to bars. I'm smarter than that, so I'll just lock myself in my room instead.
Your's Truly,
Kang Chani
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A/n:
Thanks so much for reading! How do you feel about Chani's depression? Just wondering....
Bye!
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