Voice

The Usual

I'll have the usual

Eggs

Sunny side up,

Crispy hashbrowns,

One sausage one bacon.

I like the variety.

And pancakes

Hold

The

Butter.

Thank You.

I want to watch the usual.

Which usual?

I don't know.

Perhaps our usual thriller,

Maybe even our usual comedy.

But i think today

I want the usual drama series.

The one that always

Makes me cry.

I'll grab the popcorn.

Let's go to our usual spot

The one in the meadow

Where the grass is the greenest

And the trees give the perfect shade.

The one where we lay our blanket

And eat sandwiches.

Mayonnaise and ham,

Your favorite.

I never know you liked them so much

Until you asked me to make you more.

Well, the usual

Feeling of guilt

And failure.

I feel the usual

Negative emotions.

The feeling of worthlessness

And that i

Am a failure in life.

That i'm such a burden

To those who care.

And the feeling that if

i died

Everyone's life would be

Better.

Yes Doctor,

i'll take the usual medication.

It's just the usual,

That i'm spoiled

And a brat.

The usual insult of

How i'm so useless

And how horrible i am.

The usual comment of

My stupidity

And how i

Am such a horrible daughter.

So don't worry

It's just the usual.

The Usual

Feeling,

My chest

Tightening,

My hands

Shaking.

The usual

Tears,

Sobs,

And cries.

The usual

Pain

And thoughts.

The usual idea

Of blades

And suicide.