Roses • MARKHYUCK

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I just stared at the couple in front of me. I couldn't help but be mad at them. I know I was being selfish but I couldn't help it. I was suffering because of them. The stupid flower was growing and I'm dying!

I stood up as soon as I felt like coughing. I rushed out of the cafeteria and into the boys room. I hid in a stall and started coughing up red petals. I silently cried when I saw the petals in my hand "Why is this happening to me?" I asked as tears fell from my eyes.

I ended up staying in the bathroom crying for who knows how long. I just wanted to stay there and die slowly. School was probably over by now but I didn't have any energy to move. I felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket and took it out to see someone messaged me

JAEMIN: See ya soon Hyuckie ☺️

I threw my phone at the wall and started hyperventilating. You see Jaemin was my best friend! He passed away two years ago at the beginning of sophomore year because of the Hanahaki Disease. I felt my self cough again and more petals came out. I shook my head and cried again "I don't wanna die" I groaned out and finally stood up. I picked up my phone with shaky fingers and checked my messages again only to see that the last message I had from Jaemin was from 3 days before he died.

I sighed "I'm going crazy" I mumbled to myself as I walked through the empty halls to my classroom where I had my stuff. I opened the door and saw nobody was there. I checked the time on the clock and sighed "Fuck. School finished an hour ago." I went over to my desk and groaned when I saw a yellow slip "I hate school" I growled as I shoved the detention slip into my back pocket and grabbed my stuff before trudging all the way home.

Upon getting home I started doing my homework that I got this morning. I sighed and slammed my hand down on my table "I hate Algebra!" I growled out and slouched down onto the couch. I decided to just do it later and turned on the tv and put on Netflix. I started watching The Lovely Bones. It was my favorite movie. I felt a tear roll down my eye as Susie was trying to run away from that old man.

When it finished I shut off the tv and went upstairs to take a shower. I stood in the shower with the hot water hitting my back. I was relaxed and let my thoughts wander to think about the boy that was making me suffer so much. I sighed and felt my eyes starting to water. I rubbed my face and tried to calm down so that I didn't start coughing but it was to late. I coughed up the bloody petals. At this point I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.

Your such an idiot Donghyuck. Why did you have to fall for him? Why? He isn't even that cute! His attitude though. The way he cares about me. The way he treats me. The way he smiled at me. The fact that he trusts me enough to tell me his worries and problems. The way he makes me feel. I love you Mark Lee, but you love Herin and she loves you too. That's the reason I'm suffering so much. You're killing me Mark.