Teardrops Full of Memories

Sorry it's not a lot. The chapters will get longer, I promise! It's pretty much an intro into the character's mind and how she's feeling at this moment.

*Priya's mind when she's thinking about killing herself*

I can’t wait for 2013! The year I finally leave the world! Not like anyone would actually care. You see, I took this online quiz which told me how and when I will die. I know it may seem pretty foolish, but the results were pretty accurate. For instance, my dad eats a lot, and by a lot, I mean A LOT. His results were that he would die by food poisoning. Now, tell me how THAT isn’t accurate enough?! My mom is a super bad driver and her results said she would die in a car accident. She DID already gotten in quite a few car accidents just this year alone… Pretty intense, huh?

              The thing is, the quiz stated that I would die by suicide, which is pretty obvious since I attempted it numerous times. To me, life is nothing but a butt-load of bull-crap. Either the toilet is cleaned or smudged. Woah… I should be some sort of saint by this awesome quote I just made up! Anyway… that’s not the point. Drama there, drama here, drama everywhere. And no, not that everyday drama where two girls are in a catfight over some stupid, idiotic guy. No, there is never stupid, everyday drama in my life. I could only just wish there was….

              I will admit though, I am a tad bit scared. If I wasn’t, I’d be dead by now, using the blade I sleep by every night. I have a cutting problem. It’s like a drug and I’m addicted to use it whenever I’m down. It’s tempting to cut myself, not easy to resist. The dark-red, scarlet blood dripping down my arm makes me feel high, leaving all sorrows and pain of the world. Kind of like your own blissful haven… in a cruel kind of way.

             At this exact moment, I have 2013 scribbled across my cut wrist. I can’t wait to finally see my grandpa…

             Maybe this time I’ll use an easier and less painful method. I’ll opt for pills.