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¤ Andy's POV ¤
We were going out to a dinner to celebrate our friend Lorens birthday with our manager Blair while she's visiting. We're going somewhere fancy so we were all dressed up.
At the table, my eyes couldn't help but fall to Rye everytime he spoke. He looked good when he dressed up. He looked good in general.
He noticed me staring and looked away from me, but he looked a bit bothered.
I decide to have a bit of fun.
I reach for my phone and text him.
⬅ hey babe 😉 looking good over there
I can see him reach for his phone as it buzzes. He reads it and looks at me before typing something.
my phone buzzes.
➡ Is that why you keep staring? Is it one of those 'want what you can't have' things? 😂
I look up at him and he raises his brow and smirks as if he's won something.
⬅ is that a challenge?
Now it's my turn to raise a brow and smirk.
He looks at me and puts his phone down, joining the convo again.
⬅ how about this: if Blair calls Loren princess the next time he speaks to her, I get an IOU (I Owe You- when you owe someone something and you dont know what it is or when its gonna happen but you have to do it) from you.
➡ Okay, fine. He doesn't say it as much as we make him out to.
As if on cue Blair looks to Lorens empty cup.
"Do you need more water, princess?" he asks.
I look to Rye and chuckle, almost losing my shit.
The boys look at me.
"Are.. You okay, Fovvs?" Brook asks.
I nod, holding my stomache.
"I just... Saw a meme.. That a roadie made.." I say between laughs.
They shrugged it off and went back to themselves.
I checked my phone.
➡ You really had to lose it like that?
⬅ how couldn't I? I called it and you didn't think I was right 😂
➡ It's whatever. It's just an IOU.
⬅ ookkayyyy
*time skip a couple weeks*
I was in Mikey and I's shared room, laying down.
Jack and Brook were in their room.
Rye was in him and Harveys room. Harvey was away though so it's just been Rye. I've slept in Harvs bed a couple times though.
I can't sleep. I just want lay with Rye.
I message him to see if he's awake.
⬅ hey babe. you up?
➡ Yeah. What's up?
⬅ I just can't sleep.
➡ Sorry to hear that bro.
I decided to leave it go at that because messages won't get me anywhere.
I slowly get up from bed, not bothering to put my pants back on, going to Ryes room in my boxers.
I knock quietly before entering.
"Hmm??" he says quietly on his side, facing the wall.
I crawl into his bed behind him and nuzzle my face in the crook of his neck.
"Andy..?" he whispers.
"Yes, love?" I whisper back, placing a gentle kiss on his neck.
He shakes his head, scoots back closer into me and drifts to sleep.
*next morning*
I woke up, still holding Rye, but now he had his head resting on my chest, one leg thrown over mine slightly.
"Rye," I whisper, kissing his cheek. He slowly stirs and looks at me, smiling.
"Morning babe," he whispers.
Mikey walks in and Rye jumps away from me.
"I was looking for you Andy," he says.
I was still looking at Rye. Shocked how he reacted to Mikey.
"He was just waking me up so I could go on a run. I almost overslept," Rye says, looking at me.
"Alright. Can I speak with you Andy?" Mikey asks.
"Yeah.." I say, still looking at Rye, feeling betrayed. "Yeah, you can."
I follow Mikey back to our room.
"So.. I uhm.. I have a problem," Mikey says.
"What is it?" I ask.
"I kind of broke Brooks controller.." he tells me.
"How?" I ask.
"I was playing FIFA.. And.." he trails off, knowing I got the point. "And I have to go with Blair to a meeting.. So.. Could yu and Rye maybe go get a new one??"
"Uhm.. Yeah.. We can," I say. He hands me some money and walks away.
I go back to Ryes room, opening the door.
"I'll be back," I tell him. No way am I going with him after what just happened.
"Where are you going?" he asks.
"Going to get Brook a new controller for Mikey since he broke it and asked if WE could go since he's leaving. But I know you don't wanna be seen with me so I'm going alone," I say, being kind of petty, as I go to leave.
"Wait," he says. "I'm coming."
While walking to the store, things are awkward. Until he finally speaks.
"Listen.. About.. You know.. I just.. I'm not gay, okay? I'm sorry.." he says.
"I'm not either. I'm bi. The boys know that. But even if I hadn't figured it out yet, I still know what feelings are and what certain ones mean. I know what a connection feels like. But I definitely don't let on to be something or feel somehow that im not," I say.
"I-.....I'm sorry" he looks at his feet the rest of the walk.
When we get back home we both go to our own rooms.
I go onto Instagram to look at edits the roadies have made. I feel my phone buzz in my hand.
¤ Rye's POV ¤
I feel awful about the situation with Andy.
I'm straight though. I've dated girls. I liked girls.
liked?
What.
Nonono.
I'm confused because I'm stressed right now.
I know I'm kind of straight.
kind of?
What the fuck.
I message Andy.
⬅ Listen Fovvs, I'm sorry, okay? How many times do I have to say it?
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⬅ Okay, Okay.. I get it.. You're still upset..
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⬅ I'm confused, okay? My brain is saying one thing and my heart is saying another. My brain is telling me I like girls and I'm straight. My heart is telling me that I want you. YOU, Andy Fowler. And you are not a girl.
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⬅ C'mon.. Say something.. Anything.. Please.
➡ what do you want me to say?
⬅ Andy. I'm scared. I've never felt like this before. It's.. Unknown territory..
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Andy is typing...
It feels like he's typing for years..
➡ listen. I get it. it's scary. I know how you feel. even if you don't have feelings for me.. I'll help you figure yourself out. it can be confusing. I didn't mean to pressure you in any way. I just felt hurt. I get it wasn't purposeful on your part but it still hurt. don't think you have to question yourself about me to try to make me feel better. I'm fine, really. I just want you okay and to figure yourself out. I'm sorry.
⬅ You didn't pressure me. I'm just confused. And scared. Like REALLY scared..
➡ there's nothing to be scared of besides your thoughts. they can be killer sometimes during this confusion stage. a piece of advice is, when you're going back and forth trying to figure it all out.. make sure to take part in thinking about both sides.
⬅ Thank you.
➡ no problem. I'll always be standing in your corner cheering you on ❤
At that, I place my phone on the charge.
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A/N: Hello lovely people! Hope you're enjoying this 💛
