Arrange Marriage || Namjin (completed)

27: Answer Is Near

"It's not easy to live in the now 
it's not that it's alright unless we're having fun either 
for whatever happens to myself tomorrow and day after tomorrow 
would I be able to take responsibilities?"
One Ok Rock- Answer is near
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Thank you for still reading despite my slow ass update. Uwuwwu i need to gather my thoughts a lot lmfao.

not proofread, lower case intended, the absence of apostrophe in some contractions are also intended. im lazy adffdgfg

as days elasped, everything is coming close. Whether it was deadlines, weekends or holiday or payday and so was Jimin and Yoongi's wedding day. it was only four days away. jimin decided to hold a small parties, more like a small gathering with families and close friends, a few days before the occurrence of the ceremony to avoid busy schedules because the soon to be spouses couldn't rest until after the wedding had taken place (they had too look out and double check for food, beverages, sweets and the decoration to make sure that everything runs smoothly on the D-Day) and of course, their invitation reached the kim couple.

Namjoon was in his study when the invitation from yoongi made its appearance on namjoon's phone screen and he respond immediately with an okay. he couldnt have thought twice, after all it was his best friend's pre wedding dinner party and that was the least he couldve done as yoongi's partner in both work and friendship.

He then put his phone down back to its desk and continued where he left off with his thoughts, the thought he was contemplating before yoongi's message interrupt. During situation like this, Namjoon would sit in his study talking to a keepsake in which in every level but physical can be considered as he friends, the red locket.

Sometimes when stress consumed him, he would took the red locket necklace out of the dark drawer of his desk and speak to it, listing out his concerns to it, despite knowing he wouldnt be getting any response from this non living object, having a dialogue, or in his case a monologue, with that thing gave him a sense of reassurance and it felt like his childhood best friend, the boy he once fell in love with, was there to pat him on the back and told him he did great.

But what did he mean by 'once fell in love with'? his whole life, his heart was held captive by Jinnie and no other people could come even close to claim his heart. after he parted and lost contact with the owner of the red locket necklace, he almost lost hope in finding someone who would pique his romantic interest....until just a few days ago, on a bench, in a park, he gave in to seokjin and admit defeated to the elder boy because he could no longer lie to himself or keep himself lock inside his past.

"i'm in love with someone else who shares the same name as you" he said to the locket. maybe it was fate that both of their names were Jin, or wasnt it. he felt so many emotions saying that. he wasnt sure if it was right to say it because he felt like he betrayed seungjin but at the same time he knew it couldnt be more right than this because he never said those words out loud before, it was always kept imprison in his mind and he also had to let seokjin know his feelings one day as well. Namjoon knew he gotta moves on in life.

he then grabbed his phone and gently plopped the locket on where the phone was and decided to take a breather outside, anything would be better than the emotional solitary confinement he's in right now.

he swung the door open to get out of his study just to see the person just thought about.

"speaking of the devils" he murmured under his breath.

Seokjin also seemed to just got out of his room as well. again with the awkward stares into each other's eyes but Namjoon broke the silence and asked "are you planning to go anywhere?'' just a simple question.