Arrange Marriage || Namjin (completed)

15. Smile Mask

"In this uncontrollable world, Only fake smiles increase
I want to smile But I can't smile however I want
What's the use of having passion?
be alright you can smile
When nothing goes your way"
B1A4- Smile Mask (fav song eee!!)
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Sorry guys, this week I probably wont be updating as frequently due to exams ❤️ (altho i dun think i will actually study for with..just an exucse oof)👀

Namjoon woke up with an uneasy feelings. These past few days hadnt been the best day but at the same time it felt like good days. Weird, right? He oddly looking forward to wake up to see seokjin or maybe it was just to eat Seokjin's food or maybe both. He was still confused. But one thing that he could confirm was that his impression toward the older boy changed as days elapsed and it weirded him our that he was thinking of Seokjin, the first thing after he woke up

His first impression of Seokjin was at its worse. He despised whoever his mom wanted him to marry. Until this day he still didnt get why his mom forced him to marry someone he never knew before. Change his behavior and attitude? What was wrong with the current one? He wasnt spoiled or rude. Okay, he maybe a litttle bit rude but it sounded like his mom only use it as an excuse. Maybe she liked seokjin so much that she couldnt deny the reality that Seokjin wasnt her real son so she made him her Son-in-law. Pfft. All these fucked up theories were sticking in his head to no end

But as days passed by, his experience with Seokjin...wasnt that bad if he were honest. Okay, maybe Seokjin was good looking, he was a great cook and he had soft spots that made namjoon warmed up to him a bit and he actually enjoyed Seokjin's company once in while in which Namjoon refuse to accept that fact.

He could really make them work, his relationship with seokjin could actually progress. He thought Seokjin wasnt half bad even if he did tried it out with Seokjin, tried to love, he meant, he wouldn't know if Seokjin would feel the same but the one thing that was stopping him was his never ending hope to look for his so called Jinnie. Which really suck since he had no idea what his Jinnie looked like now. He thought maybe he could look at least similar to when he was young.

Obviously, Jinnie was really hard for him to forget. It's been 13 years and his feelings were as strong as ever. If anything it'd only grow whenever he looked at the locket necklace that Jinnie gifted to him. He wouldnt even forgive himself he he had lost it, honestly.

As much as he still loved Jinnie he just thought, maybe his Jinnie has grown out of him. It had been too long for someone to still love the person that wasnt even physically there with you for a long period of time plus the lost of contacts. Who knew? Maybe His jinnie was already married or maybe had a lover by his side or couldve had forgotten Namjoon completely. The idea of his Jinnie still had feelings for him was almost impossible.

So maybe, just maybe, Namjoon could slowly let go of Jinnie in his heart and probably bat his eyes on Seokjin but the thing was, Seokjin kept reminding him about his Jinnie and it almost made him combust from time to time. How seokjin would always prone to blush, Seokjin's obsession with light color, specifically, Pink, How Seokjim stuttered from time to time. Even his damn lips. How could he even forget about that boy when there was a person in front of him who reminded him every single day. Frustration, that's what they're called.

Shaking off the unusual morning thoughts, he immediately got off the bed to do some stretches and decided to just jump in the shower then he decided that he'd just change into his new PJs since he'd be home the whole day, didnt get the point of dressing up when he could be comfortable in the soft silky texture of his Ryan printed PJs.

He made his way downstairs, expecting some food on the table but there were none.

Right, the cooks and maid wont be here for a while. He thought as he pressed his palm on his head.