Missing pieces

Just like always

I woke up with the same intensity of heat digging deep down into my soul and just like always...my entire bed was drenched in the fluid that was escaping from my body. I was panting as though someone had been chasing me and indeed someone was chasing me a few minutes back.
My alarm went off at exactly 5am just as predicted. These were my usual mornings ever since I was the age of 10. Now it's 7 years since and I still haven't had a different night from my usual ones
I dragged myself to my bedroom door only to check in the corridor and there was no sign of anyone awake
I decided to put myself together and prepare for school
I hate school. If there was something else that I could do rather than learn I would do it with one heart. But no body knows that. I've always been known for that nerdy girl that everybody likes. The girl who puts her education first but no let's be realistic, studying really does suck
This is the second week I haven't been serious with studies and only because something is always up. Honestly at times I feel like someone should just shoot me in the heart or head or wherever kills me faster so I can escape the stress of the world. The Bible was right, life on earth isn't such a huge thing we should over worry about.
As I'm walking down the stair, I receive a phone call from my "boyfriend"
"Hey Dan what's up"
"Babe good morning. We need to talk today after school"
I can tell what it's about. Honestly I dont know what I was thinking when I dated Dan. To me he was the boy from my dreams, but not anymore. As time went by I began to realise he's nothing like what I ever wanted. And the truth is I really do need to talk to him about our relationship. Its got to end
"Okay that's great cause I had something to tell you too.  See ya"
I reply and hang up.