Cupid || Stray Kids Lee Felix

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Twenty minutes.

He's only twenty minutes late. He'll show up, right? I'll just wait a few more minutes. He's probably almost here.

I tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear and fumbled with my hands in my lap. Every now and then I would look up to see if he arrived.

Ten more minutes passed before a feeling of heartache washed over me.

It felt as if everyone was staring at me; the girl who sat alone for thirty minutes waiting for a no-show. The girl who lets her past eat away at her and ruin her chances of finding happiness again. The girl who seems to have lost the ability to love.

I stood up, expressionless. Only one word to describe what I was feeling; numb.

Constant failed attempts of regaining happiness. Dates that constantly ended in me leaving because I can't get him off my mind and the inevitable fears he left upon me.

Him and our unrequited love that now just lies as a memory engraved into my head.

The thing is, I don't miss him. I miss me.

I left, still lost in my thoughts. Even as I rode a cab back home, I stayed silent.

As I walked to the front door of my apartment, I stayed silent, my mind now empty.

I opened the door to my apartment before taking a deep breath and smiling.

As soon as I walked in and closed the door, Felix popped up in front of me.

"How did it go?"

"It actually went really great!" My voice cracked as I reached the end of the sentence, more than likely exposing the truth behind my words.

He stared at me carefully as if in thought but, I looked away from him, avoiding eye contact.

"I'm going to head to sleep. You can crash on the couch if you want or at cupid world, I don't know where you stay." I laughed before walking past him to my room.

As I shut the door behind me, relief washed over me and I slumped down in my chair in front of my desk. For a moment, I sat there in silence, staring at the closed notebook in front of my eyes. I released a heavy sigh and flipped the slightly torn notebook open to the next blank page, grabbing my pencil.

Instantly, I started writing. It felt as if the words I couldn't speak came spilling out onto my paper.

I wrote and wrote, becoming lost in the wonderland of my thoughts. I furrowed my eyebrows in concentration until the led of my pencil suddenly snapped, bringing me back to reality.

Slamming my pencil down across my desk, I put my hands in my hair in frustration.

We all have our breaking points and I guess this was mine.

The first tear fell from my eye, landing on my paper and making one of the words begin to smudge together. Once that first tear fell, the tears wouldn't stop coming down. I folded my arms across my desk and laid my forehead against them, finally letting out the tears I've held back for so long. After what felt like hours, my crying became only short sniffles as my aching, tired eyes closed, letting my body finally gain the sleep it has been craving.

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The apartment was filled with nothing but silence. Felix sat alone on the couch, gazing down at his hands while in deep thought. He heard the muffled cries an hour before they died down but, he wasn't quite sure about what he should do.

Do I check on her?

Do I just leave her alone?

He went back and forth between the two questions on his mind before finally standing up and walking over to the door of her bedroom.

Hesitantly, he placed his hand on the doorknob. He twisted the handle slightly then paused.

Is it okay to just walk in like this?

Staring at the handle, he thought for a moment and finally decided to open the door.

Twisting the door handle all the way now, he quietly opened the door, peeking inside.

To his surprise, he seen Sehyun sitting at her desk and she appeared to be sleeping. Making sure to be quiet, he walked into her room and made slow steps towards her until he was standing at her side.

Her face was buried into her arms with her body slumped over slightly and her long, dark hair draped over her shoulders messily.

He sighed quietly to himself, wrapping one of his arms behind her back and putting his other arm under her legs, lifting her out of her chair carefully. Her head fell to the side and her bangs laid scattered across her face as he carried her to her bed.

Felix laid her down in her bed before taking her shoes off of her and placing them on the ground quietly, unsure about where exactly to put them.

He grabbed her blanket and cautiously pulled it out from underneath her. After finally getting it out, he pulled the blanket over her delicately and looked at her face that was now evidently covered with the stains of tears.

Sympathy caused him to ache for her and he brushed her bangs to the side so that they were no longer in her eyes.

He gently tried to wipe away the stains with his sleeve causing her to move slightly in her sleep and turn away from him.

"Sweet dreams Sehyun.." He whispered before exiting her room and shutting her door carefully behind him.