Secret speeches

A speech to my schoolmates

So hey everyone! I know that you are probably telling yourselves "she is going to talk about how great our year in highschool has been and that we should be perseverant in our lives". Well let me tell you that that's not true. Today I am going to tell you a story, my story. A story of the perfect student. As you all probably know, I practice Taekwondo and I get high grades at school. Also I know how to dance salsa (one of the values of myself that I adore much) and I just enjoy laughing at everything that my friends tell me( even if it is a bad joke) . But let me tell you, that's part of a disguise I just showed to people to avoid my problems. The thing is, I am just a human being as you that simply can't be herself because according to her family " is wrong". You know : " hey you should be an engineer, that goes for you; why  did you failled this test, are you dumb?; why do you want to go with your mother, she is nothing but a woman who sells food in the streets and its poor as well as her husband?; if you go with her you will die of hunger; o come on why don't you kill yourself because when your mother and I are gone no one, I repeat NO ONE is going to care about you because you are an idiot and nobody likes idiots."  This were the words of a man who I used to respect and adore. But, the last three years have been a disaster. He separated me from my mom, using as an excuse that he was " protecting me". Truth is that he wasn't, actually it was all about hating my mother and feeling resentful about her boyfriend. So as you can imagine, this was my life everyday. The only place that I felt safe and happy was with my friends at school. And, in the moments I had to cry, I just went to the bathroom, cried for a couple of minutes, wipped my tears from my face and returned to class. By the way, did I forget to tell you? My grandma ( or as she used to call herself " better than my mother) listen to my conversations everytime I was talking to my mom. So when my father got back to work he told me to give him an explanation about the interpretation he had heard about my grandma.
I became lonely and started becoming obese. I didn't like being myself, I just couldn't do it anymore, so I sat in the balcony of my room, and thought to myself "If I jump then this is all over". I repeated that for myself every time for two weeks. I thought about my mom having a better life with her husband, my father living as he wished with his girlfriend ( free expenses), my friends who would forget me sooner or later. So, one day, I called my mother asking her if anyone would love me after my father and her died. She started crying and told me that I was a great person and that nobody should tell me otherwise. That I am extraordinary and that because of my personality I would have a lot of people who would sorround me. After that I started crying too. I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night for thinking " how stupid I was if I was going to actually throw myself". Since then, and after my mother visited the country after almost three years in which I couldn't see her, I became stronger. So here is my final message for you guys, if I could do it, so can you. Life is just going to kick you, yell at you, destroy you, but you must get up. Every time you feel that the world is going to smash you, you just raise yourself and defend back. Because you are going to be known not by who you are physically or by your family roots, but by how you defend yourself from your problems. Thats is going to be your mark and thats whats going to make you different from anybody else.