Cole Evans Diary (short story)

My Feelings

  " Um well nothing, you not worry about "

 " Um okay.." 

  I try not to get my tongue twisted and mess up my words, I really want him to tell him the truth. I want to tell him everything. I want to tell him to give me all my stuff back because deep down inside him he knows he has it some where in his house. But then it blurts out from my stupid mouth from no where

" I WANT MY STUF BACK! THE HEADPHONES EVERYTHING YOU HAVE TAKEN FROM MY HOUSE!"

 I think he got speechless and got worried. I was feeling the tension between us so I closed the door and locked it. I could tell he was nervous because he sweats a lot, like a lot.  He was wearing a white shirt as always, but he was sweating so much his shirt became see through. I tried so hard not to look at his abs. But I couldn't help myself. I was in the moment but now I regret it. I slowly approached him and leaned in and kissed him. I thought he would pull away but he pulled me even closer. It was like my 5 minutes in heaven or whatever its called. I pulled off his shirt and he pulled off mine. The lights went off ands did our pants. Then I pulled off his boxers and started doing stuff. I felt amazing that night. 

  The next morning I wake up next to him laying on his chest. Then when he woke up he left. He just dashed out the door with his clothes. I just couldn't believe this actually happened. I just woke up feeling happy than any other day. My parents were away for a business trip so I was just watching the morning come and just thinking how magical it was.

  When we came back to school he acted like nothing happened. He acted like he was different. He teased me a lot. He blackmailed me. I thought he was gonna be the same. But I guess I was wrong. All I wanted was my best friend back. I totally started regretting what had happened that night. I just want to go back in time and stop myself from seducing him.

   I tried and tried all night to make him answer my text and calls. But he either never read the texts or leaves me on read. The calls just went straight to voicemail. I felt so fucking stupid for throwing myself at him. I don't even know if he was into me or not. I just can't deal with it. I just needed to talk to someone. So where do I go? The internet. I have heard of this thing called internet best friends so I wanted one. I looked up some Internet Best friend accounts. I filled up an application and sent it in. Just waiting until someone from across the globe could listen to me.