and in that moment every singly piece of hope I had, every little bit of insanity had..left,and it was at that moment I realised what I had done. my hands were shaking as though had been shocked by one of those tazers the police use to stop people,my entire body had gone numb, and I lay there, 3 hours and now has come 2 weeks and the ambulance were rung, 24 hours of tears and finnaly the pain is gon.... no it never leaves it never leaves and I want it to stop but it won't
