hi my names alleyah allana mason. and I am insecure. I am 5'6 with brown shoulder length hair small boobs and a medium sized but with Carmel skin color. I have a dimple in the left side of my cheek. and I'm not the skinniest person around. I weight in at around 137 pounds. bit enough of that. the reason I'm insecure is because everyone tells me I'm too fat or I'm too ugly and I hVe no friends. my own parents don't even claim me because I'm not the lightskin girl with long flowing hair with a pretty smile like they wanted. I get the same comments everyday, "fat bitch " or "worthless hoe " I've heard it so much that I started to believe it. o try everyday to get my parents to like me. I get all A's I'm always on time., and I never talk to anybody simply because I don't have any friends. people don't want to ruin there reputation hanging with people like me. a girl that's never had a conversation with anyone outside of family. everybody looks at me like I'm some type of alien when I walk in. so I just keep my head down everywhere I go. just so I won't make anybody mad. yes they get mad when I look at them or even breath the same time as them. because of that I spend most of my time at werlpound boxing gym learning how to box. I've been doing it to get my Mind off of things. I've been going there since I was 10.around the time that the bullying really started. and if I didn't get a job I wouldn't have the things I have today. I have my own two bedroom apartment my nana left me before she died. she was the only one who cared. she saved up like 600k and gave it all to me to do for myself what my parents wouldnt. I have nobody. my parents moved and didn't tell me where they went or when. I had to find out by driving by my old house to see other people moving in the house. I always wanted to have someone to love me. bit like nana always told me "love yourself girl or nobody will" but it's hard to do that when your constantly getting put down and have no one to talk to. sometimes I think why not just end it? then it's like I hear my grandma's voice saying "you have to weather the storm to find the light "like she's telling me to keep living and better days will come. and I hate when I hear the girls at school complain about how they parents care to much about them to let them go to a party. well I wish mines carefully that much. nobody knows my struggle but me. life is a journey! BUT IS IT WORTH LIVING?
